Part Fifteen : Annoying People Annoying Messages!!!

我强调， 我不喜欢被威胁！
律师已经请了，你自己跟我律师谈！跟你这种反反复复的烂人讲话，简直是在浪费我的时间，浪费我的口水！
拖多少年都好，只要能摆脱你这个烂人照算要我倾家荡产我也愿意！你每次都说要请律师跟我抢回儿子，可是到现在你却没有！你说的话我还去相信的话，我真的比猪还笨！既然没有请律师，老婆和孩子又不用你养，那天我律师代表我跟你要求拿孩子的月费时，怎么说给不了？钱花去哪个狐狸精身上了？（这事儿绝对不是瞎讲我有照片为证！还要自己PO在自己的面子书上给人家看！）还要跟我商量每个月只给两百！两百！够孩子上课，吃，喝，穿吗？之后，不到24小时，竟然打电话跟我律师说连两百都给不起了！连我律师都翻白眼！之后我们才决定你这个精子捐赠者不给孩子的生活费就不让你看孩子！
多谢你，我现在每晚都得做两份兼职，你觉得我还有那个美国时间跟你见面，浪费我的时间跟你谈那些有的没的吗？

我告诉你，威胁我没有用！最多一拍两散而已！

我就是特地在面子书上说，因为你父母，你家人，你亲戚原来都会注意我PO的东西！让每一个人知道你是一个怎样的烂人！你不在乎那你又去看？（翻白眼中）而且我说的都是事实！
我很清楚我自己做了什么，想要的是什么！我会为了我想要的人，事，物上尽力的付出一切！我问心无愧！对得起我自己！

而你做过什么你自己很清楚，（1）准备要嫁给你时，你就告诉我说你这辈子最爱最疼的是你妈妈，而不是说你会爱我一辈子，那一瞬间，我的心已经受伤了，既然如此，我就如你所愿，下半辈子你就跟你妈妈度过吧！不是说把我肚子搞大了， 娶了我过门，就可以收工了。这不叫责任！（你自己也承认你是有这样的想法，给我一点时间找出此信息为证！）我不是一个帮你生孩子的工具！（2）我十月怀胎，每天塔巴士去上课，你也不会说早点起来载我去学院一下，之后肚子越来越大，我就拜托我的同学每天载我上课下课，你还是那个死样没有改进！你妈妈还跟我说了一句，如果有男生来家里载我就要跟他们说，免得外面的人闲言闲语。到头来，你们家就是爱面子。嘴巴生在别人那儿，人家爱说什么是他们的事，活了那么久，这点不用我教。我问心无愧！直到我生了以后，回到家开始做月子的日子，你们的专注力都只放在孩子，孙子，侄子的身上，那我呢？永远都不会想下我生完后有多虚弱，也需要你们的关心。（3）做月子期间，竟然给我抓到你跟别的美眉电爱，还不只一个！你永远都无法明白我当时的心是那么的痛！想哭却没泪！把电话往你身上丢的那一刻，我的心已经死了！我家人知道后，我姐姐只说了一句，精神上出轨也算是出轨！（4）一个正常人，好好的不会有两个面子书户口，（虽然我知道某些人为了玩面子书的游戏，朋友不够就开多几个来玩游戏！）可是你开的另一个户口，竟然里面全是三级的东西，全都是说性爱的，还同时跟几个美眉信息电爱，交换手机号码！发现的那一刻，也跟你吵了架，因为还在乎，所以还是想要你回头！很可惜，历史一直不停的在重演！感谢你让我看清楚，也明白这世界上根本就没有一个好男人！

对！家务是你做的，那又如何？之前在你妈妈家住时，都是你妈妈在做！这是你搬过来一家三口一起生活的时候，我逼你做的！我生出来不是为了要服侍你这个烂人！要不然，所有东西都是我做完，你放假就在家里看戏，玩电话，打游戏机，看三级片打飞机，上网认识美眉，跟人家电爱那么享受？不要以为做那几件家务事就觉得自己很了不起，养不起老婆和孩子的烂人一样也是被人家（尤其是我）看不起！要你做家务，是要你学会独立，学会分担责任！要你帮忙做家务，帮忙照顾孩子，是因为家你也有份住（没给房租还要懒懒散散的厚着脸皮在那儿白住白用！）孩子你也有份，怎么说都是跟你姓，不要以为做爱做到那么爽，什么责任就不必出！你从前就不长进，没有上进心，每天上班都迟到，你选择拿着千二块的薪水就这样过活，你到底有没有想过老婆和孩子接下来的生活？你连给家用都给不起，每个月还要回家跟爸爸妈妈讨钱，早午晚三餐确是家里包完！都不知道钱跑了去哪里！要你帮忙照顾孩子是因为我生完后，几乎每天下课之后，都得去做兼职做到三更半夜来维持自己的生活，（由于做到半夜12点，没有巴士可以搭回家，所以叫自己的老公载，他竟然有几次是要我苦苦哀求他来载我回家，因为我不想麻烦我家人，真TMD却跟我拿油费！）而你却只做一份千二块的工来维持你自己的生活！孩子出生到现在，他大多数的一切都是我妈妈，你岳母，孩子的外婆买的，给的。而每次要跟你讨钱买孩子的奶粉，你都说用完了，没钱了，还反过来跟我要钱！好！钱你不要赚，那我去赚，你这个烂人当然是在家里做家务，照顾孩子啊！我如果有的选择，难道我不希望在家里看孩子长大吗？没用的烂人！嫁了给你三年，（2014年4月分居）都没有给过我零用钱，也就算了，连每次跟你拿孩子的费用时，你都牙痛！

是的！没错！我是把孩子给我妈妈照顾，那是因为我认同她教孩子的方法，其次，她是我这一生最值得我依赖，信赖的人！而且我得上课，得考试，得做工，我是普通人，不是超人，一天就只有那24小时，我也需要帮助，我很庆幸有家人的支持，很辛苦的挨过了两年，也终于毕业了！（感恩！）而你时常把还孩子带回去你家，除了回家吃免费晚餐之外，是因为你要玩手机，要看戏，同样的把孩子丢给你妈妈看顾！你们全家所谓的看顾，就是有一次，眼睛，灵魂都跑进电视机里去了，孩子却连人带脚车这样滚下了楼梯！（他们是住店屋的）那天还好意思眼睁睁的说谎！（我家翁）

你爱我？你知道什么是爱吗？我们之间真的有爱吗？怎么我感受不到？怎么我看不出来你所做的一切是因为爱我？爱我就不要伤害我，就要为了我替我说话。我当然爱我家人，我父亲在我11岁的时候，两脚一伸就这样把我们三姐妹丢下，家里少了一个支柱，这些年都是我妈妈，母兼父职，兼职几份，省吃省用，每天做到三更半夜，埃坏身子，手术动了几次，辛辛苦苦的把我们三姐妹养大！她们每一个都在我最需要帮助的时候伸出援手！包括当你把我弄哭时，都是她们再我身边陪伴我，安慰我！我不像你家境那么好却生在福中不知福！

对！我可以大大声的告诉你们，律师费的确半毛钱我都没有出过，都是全靠我家人帮我出的！因为多谢你这个烂人，我逼不得以买车就为了要接送我的宝贝上课下课，去保姆家，（用了他的烂车几天而已，却说我把他的烂车弄坏！）我还得付孩子的保姆费，学费，打油，修车费，（前阵子应该是疲劳过度驾车时睡着了，把车给撞烂了！）还为了让自己活下来，每天没胃口都逼自己吃，（最近市道很差，兼职那儿也没工开，也只好回家做小老鼠了！）还有等等费用。虽然很穷的说，可是离开你以后，我每天都活到很充实，很好！就是不明白你为什么要死死咬着我不放！这会令我更想要离开你！
（顺便多口一句的说，所有的钱都不属于你我他，所有的钱上印了BANK NEGARA MALAYSIA，其实它是属于银行的！）

其实你签不签不重要，那只是一张纸说我跟你这个烂人已经没有任何关系而已，我又不是等着嫁人，此时此刻，对我来说，已经无所谓了！你不要以为可以拿着这样的一张纸来绑住我，很抱歉的说，我不属于任何人！

其实我想说，一切都太迟了！机会给了无数次，还是一样的死样，说也说了，讲又讲过了，乖过那几天，一样打回原型，正所谓江山易改，本性难移！你之前所答应的，当时没做到的，而现在有没有做到当时候许下的承诺，对我来说已经没有意义了！

要等到我离开才来成长，未免太迟了吧？有些东西错过了就是错过了，已经没有办法回头了！有的时候，不会珍惜，等到没有了，才想到要珍惜！无可否认，只要有人肯栽培你的音乐天分，在音乐这行业里，你是可以有很大的发展空间，当时候很穷的时候，说了要你去海螺把自己的歌卖给他们，赚点钱，你却懒懒散散，拖拖拉拉的，到最后还是没有办到！我告诉你，没有你我们都过得很好！请你不要再精神的骚扰我们了！很坦白的说，你买的东西，我真的越看越讨厌，一生气就把东西送给别人了！如果要真正的谢谢我，就请你离开我和孩子的生活！不要再来烦我们打扰我们了！现在摆脱你是我真正想要的！

我想来想去，想不明白，用一个手机号码来信息我就好了，为什么要用两个？这是011的电话号码（新买的）来信息我的~~~ (应该是精神病发作！）

还是那句，我倾家荡产都要得到孩子的抚养全！没有了孩子，我也不想活了！你不会明白，我十月怀胎（虽然他不足月就出生）跟他一起搭巴士，一起上课，一起考试，一起哭，一起笑，一起玩耍，（就是会很坏蛋的用力踢我肚子）等等。没有了这个小瓜，我真的不知道活着还有什么意义了。他此时此刻就是让我生存在这世界上的推动力，他连我有自虐的习惯也一一的改善了，他是我的天使（同时也是恶魔，毕竟他是男生，很调皮的说），为了他我什么都可以不要！以前会为了自己所要的人，事，物而去奋斗，现在只为了要给孩子他所要的人，事，物而奋斗！

其实没什么好谈的，赡养费你要不要给我，我也无所谓，（他该不会是想要跟我拿赡养费吧？）我从来就没有跟你要过！这些年有你没你，都没差，没有你我过的比从前更好！少了一个人经常精神上骚扰我！孩子的生活费既然你都说了连两百块一个月都付不起，我不会再让你看孩子了！所以连探望孩子的时间都无需跟你谈了！我要的是你离开我们的生活！最好是完全消失！

Back Again...

As usual...
Am back here blogging again for after a few months...
Have no idea which and where am I labeling this post to...
I think I'll tag both...
But...
That is not important...
What I have to say on this post is important...

After the TWO not long not short but EXTREME years that I had gone through...
Now, come the part where I am heading to my CONVOCATION...
But...
Hold your horses MISS, you ain't going to get your Diploma not until you had go for your INDUSTRIAL TRAINING...

Well...
That is where am I now...
Industrial Training (IT) at the Prince Hotel and Residence Kuala Lumpur...
How the hell did I ended up here...
Oh well...
First, was planning to go Port Dickson (PD) for training as all the students in my college who choose hotel industry will be ending up there...
Then, because of lots of advises from my mother, from the sensei, and most importantly form my heart...

Although deep down inside I would rather be in PD with my friends...
Due to my situation on "Can't Let Go of My Baby King" issue...
I choose to have my IT at Kuala Lumpur (KL)...

And I told the person in charge I was going and decided to have my IT here at KL, she helped to spread the news as I have no idea where to do my IT...
Well, I actually have one...
But, I won't choose there as I had been there to do my part-time job for almost a year...
So I was thinking and hoping that there will be a NEW EXPOSURE to other hotels...

And weeks before my IT starts...
The Training Manager, Mr Raymond called and asked me for an interview and Hotel Orientation...
I was having my FINALS...
So I said I can't go for the Hotel Orientation...
Then, he asked whether that the following Saturday is suitable for me to go for the interview...
Due to I had a resit exam on that day...
So I just said I'll called him back after I re-confirmed with my guardian regarding the postponed of my resit exam and he gave me his handphone number to contact him...
Yes, the college approved the re-scheduled of my resit paper...
But then, when I called him for the re-confirmation of the interview...
Guess what, I called and called so many times that I couldn't count of...
I even borrowed my friend's phone to called and I am very thankful for that...
(Thanks Jayson - he has been a good friend)
In the end, I had to SMS him to reached him and get him to called me back...
Then, after a couple of days, he called and agreed on the Saturday interview...

And so, that is how we can finally meet...
(That is what you think!)
That glory morning...
I took the train and walked to the hotel to have the interview...
(And I will always remember that particular day as it was my guardian mummy's birthday and I almost had myself killed when I was crossing the road)
Guess what...
The busy manager, Mr Raymond had forgot all about me...
His colleague told me that he is on leave that day...
So, in the end, his colleague, Mr Alex interviewed me...
It was DISAPPOINTING and UPSET!!!
(Is this how you treat a new coming trainee?)

And so...
Without any calls that whether am I confirmed or not...
The person in charge in my college had to called to double confirmed regarding am I in or not...
And this is how and where all the BULLSHITS in my life begins...

Actually I do survey on that particular hotel...
And guess what feedback I got...
He said : -
If is about that hotel, then I will consider it as a middle class working environment. Is not so clean and benefit is around 4/10 rating. Learning out come considering the environment and people that work there, 5/10 rating because not much skill can be gain from that places due to high turn over stuff, and just too many empty cans around, making too much of noise! Management experience rating 7/10, get to learn bad and good stings about working with fakers! Overall rating I will consider it as a 5/10 rating, because the fruit that you will gain will not be anything more than an under ripe product!

What would you think after reading from this?
At first I thought that there maybe a silly misunderstanding of this...
But...
After getting your ass into there...
I had to agreed on all the words his said... 
Especially the word

"WORKING WITH FAKERS"!!!

Stay tuned on what my life would be in this hotel...
And so..
That begins my life of working SIXTEEN hours a day because I am having two jobs...
One is training at the hotel that I don't have a really good thing about it and the other is part-time barista in Starbucks...
 (Those who worked there before, got to admit that there is there BEST place to have your working experience!)

During my days of IT...
There was once that I could not figure it out that as somebody's wife, why I had to work until I got all the blaming and screaming and what so ever from my mum...
And yet...
The one that my child is calling daddy said nothing and do nothing but to enjoying his life of getting to work every single day, go home for dinner (as he don't want to eat what so ever I am cooking as he said that the dishes will spoiled after FIVE hours, and that is how the hell that your mother-in-law brought your wife and her two sisters up!!!), fetching me back from work (this is where I had to initially begged him to do so as Starbucks is giving additional RM8 for those who are working closing [for my store]!!!)...
This is his daily routine and when I was not working Starbucks for closing...
He would say that...
"OMG!!! I won't have anything to eat for the next day for breakfast..."
(Due to the promises that the customers of Starbucks will get FRESH foods daily, all those which can't be sold is being throw away.) 
You get the picture on what I would have to explain that why we have free breakfast...
So, how would you feel like when your husband is saying that particular sentence if you want to have a rest for the night?
Can anyone tell me what would you feel after reading what he had said to me?
Well, do you know what I feel?

IT WAS DAMN FRUSTRATING AS  I HAD TO BEGGED AND ASKING YOU TO FETCH ME BACK OVER MY TEARS AND IT WAS DISAPPOINTING!!!

This man that I called my husband, that my child called him father...
Is UNCUREABLE...
(If anyone found a solution, please oh please do share the antidote with me.)   

 I know I SHOULD NOT saying bad things about him and blogged it out to let everyone know...
But, besides blogging and getting feedback or comment from a friend or somebody around this world it may help to find antidote that I want...
Plus, who can I nagged to as I guess my friends are fed up on listening on what I had to express about him...
Sometimes, I just wanted to scream and bring my darling to somewhere and start over again...
Or maybe kick him out of the house...

Well, speaking of that issue...
There was once that I really, sort of kick him out of the house as we both have a really fierce fight...
And guess what...
He really do wanted to leave the house and go back home to his mother...
He is not a he...
As whatever he do and wanted to do also need his parents approval...
I think my son should call me DADDY instead of MUMMY...
But, in the end, I know that it looks ugly and I still need him for the baby sitter's fees...
So I called him back...
He went to sleep straight away leaving me hugging with my darling and cried...

Well...
THIS IS THE FACT OF A MARRIED TOO YOUNG LIFE!!!

And because of the "brain-stuck" of me getting two jobs and one is paid monthly and the other was paid after the completion of the your IT which will be six months...
I could not figure it out that why I had to go there for eight damn long hours doing something by my observation and no one there to teach me plus not even an offer letter or a proper orientation for me and no income...
So I took one week off myself...
And wrote a letter the reason that I am not be able to go to work...
I know it wasn't right to do so...
I actually could not even sleep for the whole DAMN week...

Due to this problem...
Mr Raymond wanted to see me...
It was the second day I changed to the Front Office Department...
All I could remember is that he told me that...
"This was unacceptable..."
Repeat it over and over again...
And the most pissed off thing he told me about...
"I remember very clearly that I had already told you that you can't take MC for more than two days."
This is when I nodded my head and told him that I don't know anything about it...
Well...
In the end, I cried as I feel so UN-invited, UN-welcomed and UN-wanted...
Because I worked for a month and I still have not signed any offer letter nor any invitation or information regarding the orientation...
And yet...
He was like blaming me for not going for the past orientation due to I had being ill and got a two days MC from the doctor...

And so...
He said he want to see me on his next orientation which will be on the 2nd, 3rd and 4th of May...
And yes, I did attend only the first day of the orientation...
And on that particular day...
As I was rushing to my part-time job, due to his lateness of the orientation, and my carelessness on walking a slippery floor because it was raining...
I SPRAINED my ankle 45 degree backwards to my shoulder at the timekeeper...
And I quickly got up as I think I was late...
Then I stopped at the side for a while to take out my umbrella as it was raining...
At first I didn't feel a thing beside it was getting more harder to walk as I can feel the pain while I am walking in the new KLCC bridge...
I stopped and asked the cleaner if there is a wheel chair for me...
And the cleaner said no...
So I asked again from the security and told him what had happened...
And his manager brought a wheel chair to me and sent me to the ground floor for a medical check up (it was called a security check up according to them) and a taxi ride home...
(Forgot to get his name though as he was rushing for another incident where his people needs him, he left before I could get in a taxi...)
It cost a fortune out of me for the taxi ride...
The driver was kind enough to fetch me back as it was a bad traffic jam during that time and also giving a little discount for the ride too...
He was so DAMN kind... 

Well, was waiting for the manager to pick me up with the wheel chair...
I did called to the man that I married to before calling my mum...
I called him to come immediately to fetch me and I will wait for him...
He said that he is at work and could not go for the moment and it was so jam...
And then I said called his brother of father to come fetch me to the doctor...
All he said was : "I think they were working at this time too, they can't fetch you back." ...
I was pissed and hang up...
(To those who had married, going to married or planning on getting married, this was not the right thing to treat someone had suffer a lot of pain while delivering a child that carries the name of your ancestors!!!)
Then, I had no choice but to called my mum and get help from her...
You see...
MUM IS THE BEST THING YOU EVER HAD!!!
Whatever shits that comes to your life...
She is and will be the one you look for by the end of the day...

Well, it was a matter of life and death as I thought that it would be a bone fracture or something...
Luckily...
It was not...
And until now...
It was swelling and DAMN painful...
That reminds me of last year...
There was once I was fainted while getting to work at the timekeeper...
So I was admitted to the hospital...
He didn't even came to see me...
And the reason was...
My mother called him to go back to work as I was okay for the time being...
The feeling of disappointment never gone away since then...
To all the male readers of my blog...
Please be there on who ever it may be that had called you for help or had been admitted to the hospital...
The first person that he or she would like to see is YOU!!!
(Even know he or she hates you...) 

I am putting an end for now...
It was sad and painful of blogging all the negatives in my life...
Thanks for your time and patience who had read this post...
It was DAMN long I know... 
Have an awesome day...=)

P/S : Please do not ever thought of not getting married if you are a follower of my blog and read about my marriage life. I don't have a fairy-tale marriage doesn't mean that your future marriage is not a fairy-tale too. It will break my heart if you don't try.

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Fourteen)

OMG!!!
Say already don't wish to post this ever again...
But...
Still I have no choice...

Just now around 5:30pm...
I received a call from my hubby...
He say his father asked us want to go his uncle's house party or not...
Then I said okay lor...
Since I am not cooking and the original plan of going to eat steamboat with his friends were canceled...
Then he said that his father will go my house and pick my baby and go first...
So I si beh beh song lor...
I asked why every time also want to bring him go first?
Why can't we go as a family?
As only me, my hubby and my baby...
He then replied me that his father want to bring him go and play first...
Then I said don't have to do that...
We will go ourselves...
Then we hang up...

After hanging up the phone I was thinking...
Why their family like to suddenly asked people out?
Why can't their family let us know earlier so that we could plan our own things?
So I called my hubby again and asked...
Then I said I don't want to go already...
Since I am planning to go grocery shopping with my hubby and my baby at Tesco...
Then he said that he wanted to go to steamboat also...
I asked him not say canceled already de meh?
He replied that they decided to have a farewell party for one of his friend...
Then I asked how and which one he want to attend?
He told me that he wanted to go both...
Means after he finish work straight away go to his uncle's party and then go to his friend steamboat party again...
Then I said what about his spectacles?
(He dropped it on the floor and it was broken)
I told him to choose one event and can't be so greedy...
I told him that your uncle's party held on every year...
But your friend's farewell party wasn't...
I advised him to go to the farewell party because on the other hand I rather go to the farewell party to be myself rather then smiling all the night and don't know what on earth are his relatives talking about as I don't know how to talk or listen to Teochew...
So he take the advise and called his father...

Few minutes later...
He SMS me that his father is going to called me later...
Then I called him to asked what is going on...
He told me that his father said we promised them that we will go during CNY...
Then I said I don't remember and don't recall any of this at all...
Then he said that they promised his aunt to bring baby attend the party...
I was like WTH!!!
He is my baby and I am his mother...
When I needed his parents to help me on taking care of baby King while am still studying and what negative stories and bull shits they gave me...
Now baby is getting bigger and more easy to take care of...
I feel like they were trying to take him away from me and the reason they want their son to marry me is also because of the baby!!!
So DAMN angry and posted this on the FACEBOOK where I had approved the Chuah's that had added me again since I had deleted them...

Now...
Seriously have no idea what is happening...
F**K~~~ ><''

NEW CHAPTER IN LIFE (Part One)

Well...
It had been a month since I had moved out with my hubby and my baby King...
I have too say so far so good la...
UniFi's technician had came finally...
Means that I can update my blog if I have the time...
But...
Need to start to pay the bills already...
Haiz...

Let me introduce my new house to you...
Had 3 bedrooms and a bathroom...
It is not a very big house but it is enough for the 3 of us...

Oh ya...
Besides the 3 of us...
There is one person that wanted to treat herself as a stranger and stay at my house for the time being...
So one of the rooms had been rented out to her...
Which makes me sometimes quite mad about her...
Initially I thought of helping her to save money for not renting a room for her but letting her to sleep a bed with a bed frame...
Then she said she feels like depending on others...
And sat there cried...
WTF!!!

No matter you are staying with who and where...
You are still depending on others to rent a room for you...
The difference is that whether the owner is living with you or not...
She say she rather pay me for a room...
And that is what she wants...
I'll give her what she wants then...
Means that our relationship now is that house owner and tenants...
That's all...
Really damn mad at her...

Recently had quarrel with her as I bought a very good friend up to stay for the night at my house...
And she said I didn't introduce to her...
Then...
I answered that she is my friend...
She said friend also have name...
Then I forgot what I had said...
Then the next thing I knew it she slammed the door...
I was so mad I said I was kind enough to shelter to let her live here, I do not need to see her facial expression...

The reason I let her stay her with me is that she rang me in the middle of the night telling me that her housemates are all moving out and she don't know what to do due to the college will be moving to somewhere near station CSL and etc...
Well...
I gave her a solution and she took it...

Now...
Giving all the headaches stuff...
First, I introduce a tour guide job to her since the pay is much higher than working as a waitress in a restaurant...
And when things aren't going well as I shared my experience of leading a tour to her...
I didn't face anything big also...
And when she faced it she find me and like raising her voice up and it was like it is all my fault...
As I know she called others to look for advices and solutions...
Advices we gave, solutions we gave...
Decisions it's all hers...
Still giving us the black face look again...
Seriously beh tahan her...
I SWEAR I WON'T INTRODUCE ANOTHER JOB TO HER AGAIN NO MATTER HOW HIGH IS THE PAY...

Then...
Bringing friends over without letting me know earlier...
Okay...
Fine...
All of them I knew also...
So I didn't say anything la...
What time come back or going where else also didn't say...
I know it is not my business on knowing whatever you are doing...
But still you are living in my house and it is my responsibility if anything happens to you...
ISH...

If you really read this...
I just want to tell you that...
Not everyone can treat you as well as I did...
I wanted to treat you as a family and you don't want...
It's fine with me...
Please change your temper before my limits of breaks off and everything gets ugly...
Not everything can be as you want and as you like...
With your temper you have gone through a lot and you know and won't want it to happen again...
The only solution is changing it no matter you like it or not...
Please think about it and one more thing...
Don't call and gets panic when things gets wrong...
And when you do called and ask for an advice or solution...
Take it or leave it, don't cry over it...

That's all for now...
It's time to cook dinner...
Bye... =)

Back...

I saw the last time I blogged...
It was 26th of July 2011...

Today is 13th of January 2012...
OMG!!!
DAMN LOOOOOOOONG I never update my blog... ><

Okay...
As usual I have STML...
So will just update what had happened recently...

FINALLY!!!
I had moved out to my NEW house...
It is very near to my mum's home as well as the LRT... =)
Really thanks to my mum for the house and everything...

Today is the forth day of my so called "BRAND NEW LIFE"... =D
This story of my BRAND NEW LIFE will be told on a BRAND NEW CHAPTER...
I hope that the title of "NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE" won't appear again in my blog...
Do STAYED TUNED!!! XD

Next...
My college life...
Am going to IT which is Industry Training soon...
Around March I think...
Anyway...
Decided to stay in KL for the 6 months of training rather than going to PD...
Because I really very worry of my Baby King...
Will be separated with my friends for 6 months...
Feel lonely sometimes when thinking of it...
Haiz...
(Will continue this later...)

Last...
My DARLING...
Baby King...=D
Is in the pink of health...
A very bad temper same as his mother...
Haha...
Teething though...
Eats whatever you eats and whenever you eats...
Leaning how to talk also...
He was like an ECHO... X)

That's all for now...
Will update when free or maybe at least the UniFi had installed... =)

P/S : May not be going back to Penang due to financial problem...
Will try to have discussion with hubby tonight...

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Thirteen)

OMG!!!
The title of my NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE gets longer and longer...
By the time and if I can survive, not to divorce until it reach to 100...
I shall make publish it as a journal of my life...
LOL!!!

Well...
I don't remember what and where I had stopped even know I read the previous post...
Totally don't have any memories of it...
(or am I too lazy to refresh my brain)
Anyway...
Will update what is going on lately...

Oh Gosh!!!
Everything was so DAMN pack in my schedule recently...
Feel like a chain traffic accident occur...
Everything that is important to me CLASH all in a period of time...

Firstly...
My baby king of course...
He is teething again...
Need EXTRA attention on him...
Because during the period he will have fever and grab whatever thing and put inside his mouth...
And boy he is seriously very playful and naughty...
Can't say him naughty yet...
Can categorize him as he has a big curiosity...
Plus...
I am very very scare that he had Autism...
Because there is no one else free to play with him at my home...
(nowadays I am staying at my house)

Secondly...
My college things...
Our lecturer had gave us a presentation to do again...
As for my status now...
I am seriously feel very sorry to my group member as I feel like I don't contribute enough of the work on the presentation...
Well...
I really didn't do anything at all...
Besides on reading all the bunch of PDF files...
Not finding a clue of thing...
ISH!!! ><
Really DAMN mad at myself sometimes...

Thirdly...
Lun is having his depressing again...
I don't know this time what the hell is happening...
I asked him...
All he answered was...
NOTHING...
DON'T KNOW...
Well...
I have been having my period lately and my temper was not really that good...
Okay...
It was WORST than the real me...
Everything seems to PISSED me off since I had gave birth to baby king...
As I think and think and think of this issue whenever I walk, stand, taking trains or buses back home...
The result of it was...
I am not suitable for taking care or living with a person with sickness...
As myself is not a positive thinker and try not to be...
Because the result of it is DISAPPOINTMENT...
I can't bear with the feelings of feeling so and you have to stay strong and can't cry over the spill milk...
In the end...
I will keep it deep down and hide it until ONE DAY it BURST...

And because of Lun's depression...
There is another issue coming up again...
Well...
His parents of course need to find out what was going on...
So...
They call us for another lecturer session again...
And as usual a bunch of CRAPS talking...
And this time...
Through out the whole lecturing...
I looked at him all the time...
And didn't say a word about any of it...
Because I know if I let everything out without any evidence...
In the end is a waste of time, waste of energy and a waste of tears...

Both of his parents say that...
Don't look so far ahead...
Peacefully go through everyday of our life and there is enough...
OMG!!!
You want me to peacefully go through my life...
It means that MY LIFE = FLAT!!!
Oh shit!!!
Sorry to say that...
I am a risk taker...
I like adventurous stuff...
And the most important thing is I would like to do everything on my own if I have the time to learn it and understand it...
Besides this...
They did mention about moving away...
They say can slow slow find...
WTF!!!
I think that I bring him away from this house he's condition will be better...
The decision has been made...
I will still move out no matter he wanted to come along with me or not...
MARKED MY WORDS!!!

I know I am very stubborn...
So what...
This is me...

I only have few words to said to his parents :
清官难审家庭事，这是我们一家三口的事，我希望用我们自己的方法去解决！
你的儿子在你们的心目中永远都是一个好孩子，可是如果你们有机会读我的部落格（事实的全部），你们就不会这样想了！
你们不可以一直想要怎样保护自己的孩儿，应该放手让他们自己去闯，他们跌倒后，才会知道痛的滋味，这样他们才会把所经历的事情铭记于心！
不要说我说你们的不是，这其实是一个事实，伦会搞到这样的地步，是因为你们做父母的小小就把他关在家里，才会搞到他这样！

P/S: Oh God, if you really can hear me...
Please make him stop mumbling when he is sleeping...
I need some rest too...
I have still a part time training job have not done yet... ><''

放手...

什么是放手？

你不爱一个人了，
这不叫放手，
这叫放弃；
你移情别恋了，
这不叫放手，
最多只是转身就走。

相反，
爱一个人，
但发现（无论如何还是）相处不来，
唯有分开，这才叫做放手。

又或，
爱一个人，
但明白对方已经不爱自己了，
唯有忍痛退出，
也叫做放手。

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