Wednesday, April 20, 2011

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Seven)

Today...
I am seriously very unhappy when Ms Beh break the news to me...
I feel like crying...

Ms Beh told me that I'm BARRED from my HHR final exam...
I was in schocked!
So am I now...
Still not believing that I had been BARRED from exam...

For most of the reasons that I skipped the class is because I woke up late...
Due to need to take care of baby King, do homework, do assignment, work and tidy up the room until late night...
Plus...
Every morning I need to call him up like a thousands of times...
I know that he is very tired...
But there is nothing much that can do when you don't have a car for me to bring baby King to the baby sitter...
Well...
No matter he is in the afternoon shift or in the morning shift...
He also had to get up early to send baby King to the baby sitter...
And there is sometimes that I am in the morning class and he was in the afternoon shift...
This situation is really making me CRAZY!!!

I'm getting a second thought on our marriage...
I would just like to leave...
I would just like to give up...
I am seriously very tired...
I am sorry...
What a woman got to do what a woman got to do...

Since I'm married...
My attendance record is not that good...
It's either LATE or ABSENT...
I want to make it right...
I want to move back to my mother's house...
I want to just FOCUS on my studies...
I want to just FOCUS on my baby King...
I want to just TAKE CARE of my family...
My mother espeacilly...
Doing a lot of part time in order to let us have a good life...
Since daddy died...
She had been a very very hard time on raising us...
I didn't even know that she had her heart surgery...
Every time I think about this...
I cried...
I am not there to accompany her...
I want to grab my chance to accompany her and do what I can to be by her side before it is too late...
Even now...
Baby King's diapers, food, toys, walker...
Whatever baby things you named it...
She pay for it...
NOT the father!!!

So the conclusion is...
I will be moving back to my house when he went to Korea for holiday for a week...
And I will go back to his house...
Because to me...
His house is like a HOSTEL to me...
I put my things there...
Have my shower...
I slept there...
And when the sun arise...
I'm out for the day...
Since is like that...
I am going to move back at least until I am graduate...
Otherwise...
He need to buy a house for the three of us to stay with...

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Six)

最近真的有如天跌下来的感觉;
不好的事情,
不好的感觉,
一连串的发生!

前天联络到屋主去看屋子
他因为做晚班
所以就有可能没办法去看
那他就提议说叫他爸陪我去看
当时的心情就是:
为什么每当我们小两口要做什么之前都要向他的父母说?
我是一个很注重私人空间的人,
我真的很不喜欢别人来插手我的家事!
除非我本人允许他人进入,
不然我对那些人会很反感!
可是他的父母就是这样,
爱管爱给意见!
他也是一个,
什么事都要告诉他父母,
什么事都要问他们意见!
到底我现在是嫁给你还是嫁给你父母?
你都这么大了,
有些事情应该可以自己做决定了,
为什么还要好像三岁小孩子一样,
“妈咪,我这样好不好?”
“爸爸,我可以买这个吗?”
我再这样忍下去总有一天会进精神病院!
我会受不了,
我会想不开,
我会去割手的!
我没有也放弃去插手你管你孩子的事情,
请你们可以不要介入我们小两口的世界吗?
你们有你们管孩子的方法,
孩子一两个星期不去上课也无所谓;
我有我的生活方式,
我不希望我儿子会像你们家的小孩那样!
我绝对会反对把儿子交给你们照顾!

说回当天看屋子的情形,
如果不是我妈咪叫我叫他们去看屋子,
我也懒得去理会他们,
妈咪好心去载他们一起去看屋子,
上车没有跟我妈咪打招呼,
照理说我妈咪是你们的长辈,
一句的问候你们都不可肯问,
那天还说我没家教,
那你们又如何?
这个场面就好像当我妈咪无道!
可恶!
过后他爸爸就开始打电话给他的朋友,
叫他朋友一起来看屋子也不说一声,
那么神秘做什么?

上到去那边,
看了那屋子,
又无声无声的自己跑下楼下去,
没有说一声!
都不知道什么人来的!
看完了,
我妈咪回家先,
而我就等他们跟他们一起回,
会去之前还坐在那边一段时间说废话,
明知道我不会听潮州话还要用潮州话来商量!
这算什么意思?

经过这件事,
我自己有了一个结论:
潮州人,特别麻烦,特别挑剔!