NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Fourteen)

OMG!!!
Say already don't wish to post this ever again...
But...
Still I have no choice...

Just now around 5:30pm...
I received a call from my hubby...
He say his father asked us want to go his uncle's house party or not...
Then I said okay lor...
Since I am not cooking and the original plan of going to eat steamboat with his friends were canceled...
Then he said that his father will go my house and pick my baby and go first...
So I si beh beh song lor...
I asked why every time also want to bring him go first?
Why can't we go as a family?
As only me, my hubby and my baby...
He then replied me that his father want to bring him go and play first...
Then I said don't have to do that...
We will go ourselves...
Then we hang up...

After hanging up the phone I was thinking...
Why their family like to suddenly asked people out?
Why can't their family let us know earlier so that we could plan our own things?
So I called my hubby again and asked...
Then I said I don't want to go already...
Since I am planning to go grocery shopping with my hubby and my baby at Tesco...
Then he said that he wanted to go to steamboat also...
I asked him not say canceled already de meh?
He replied that they decided to have a farewell party for one of his friend...
Then I asked how and which one he want to attend?
He told me that he wanted to go both...
Means after he finish work straight away go to his uncle's party and then go to his friend steamboat party again...
Then I said what about his spectacles?
(He dropped it on the floor and it was broken)
I told him to choose one event and can't be so greedy...
I told him that your uncle's party held on every year...
But your friend's farewell party wasn't...
I advised him to go to the farewell party because on the other hand I rather go to the farewell party to be myself rather then smiling all the night and don't know what on earth are his relatives talking about as I don't know how to talk or listen to Teochew...
So he take the advise and called his father...

Few minutes later...
He SMS me that his father is going to called me later...
Then I called him to asked what is going on...
He told me that his father said we promised them that we will go during CNY...
Then I said I don't remember and don't recall any of this at all...
Then he said that they promised his aunt to bring baby attend the party...
I was like WTH!!!
He is my baby and I am his mother...
When I needed his parents to help me on taking care of baby King while am still studying and what negative stories and bull shits they gave me...
Now baby is getting bigger and more easy to take care of...
I feel like they were trying to take him away from me and the reason they want their son to marry me is also because of the baby!!!
So DAMN angry and posted this on the FACEBOOK where I had approved the Chuah's that had added me again since I had deleted them...

Now...
Seriously have no idea what is happening...
F**K~~~ ><''

NEW CHAPTER IN LIFE (Part One)

Well...
It had been a month since I had moved out with my hubby and my baby King...
I have too say so far so good la...
UniFi's technician had came finally...
Means that I can update my blog if I have the time...
But...
Need to start to pay the bills already...
Haiz...

Let me introduce my new house to you...
Had 3 bedrooms and a bathroom...
It is not a very big house but it is enough for the 3 of us...

Oh ya...
Besides the 3 of us...
There is one person that wanted to treat herself as a stranger and stay at my house for the time being...
So one of the rooms had been rented out to her...
Which makes me sometimes quite mad about her...
Initially I thought of helping her to save money for not renting a room for her but letting her to sleep a bed with a bed frame...
Then she said she feels like depending on others...
And sat there cried...
WTF!!!

No matter you are staying with who and where...
You are still depending on others to rent a room for you...
The difference is that whether the owner is living with you or not...
She say she rather pay me for a room...
And that is what she wants...
I'll give her what she wants then...
Means that our relationship now is that house owner and tenants...
That's all...
Really damn mad at her...

Recently had quarrel with her as I bought a very good friend up to stay for the night at my house...
And she said I didn't introduce to her...
Then...
I answered that she is my friend...
She said friend also have name...
Then I forgot what I had said...
Then the next thing I knew it she slammed the door...
I was so mad I said I was kind enough to shelter to let her live here, I do not need to see her facial expression...

The reason I let her stay her with me is that she rang me in the middle of the night telling me that her housemates are all moving out and she don't know what to do due to the college will be moving to somewhere near station CSL and etc...
Well...
I gave her a solution and she took it...

Now...
Giving all the headaches stuff...
First, I introduce a tour guide job to her since the pay is much higher than working as a waitress in a restaurant...
And when things aren't going well as I shared my experience of leading a tour to her...
I didn't face anything big also...
And when she faced it she find me and like raising her voice up and it was like it is all my fault...
As I know she called others to look for advices and solutions...
Advices we gave, solutions we gave...
Decisions it's all hers...
Still giving us the black face look again...
Seriously beh tahan her...
I SWEAR I WON'T INTRODUCE ANOTHER JOB TO HER AGAIN NO MATTER HOW HIGH IS THE PAY...

Then...
Bringing friends over without letting me know earlier...
Okay...
Fine...
All of them I knew also...
So I didn't say anything la...
What time come back or going where else also didn't say...
I know it is not my business on knowing whatever you are doing...
But still you are living in my house and it is my responsibility if anything happens to you...
ISH...

If you really read this...
I just want to tell you that...
Not everyone can treat you as well as I did...
I wanted to treat you as a family and you don't want...
It's fine with me...
Please change your temper before my limits of breaks off and everything gets ugly...
Not everything can be as you want and as you like...
With your temper you have gone through a lot and you know and won't want it to happen again...
The only solution is changing it no matter you like it or not...
Please think about it and one more thing...
Don't call and gets panic when things gets wrong...
And when you do called and ask for an advice or solution...
Take it or leave it, don't cry over it...

That's all for now...
It's time to cook dinner...
Bye... =)

Back...

I saw the last time I blogged...
It was 26th of July 2011...

Today is 13th of January 2012...
OMG!!!
DAMN LOOOOOOOONG I never update my blog... ><

Okay...
As usual I have STML...
So will just update what had happened recently...

FINALLY!!!
I had moved out to my NEW house...
It is very near to my mum's home as well as the LRT... =)
Really thanks to my mum for the house and everything...

Today is the forth day of my so called "BRAND NEW LIFE"... =D
This story of my BRAND NEW LIFE will be told on a BRAND NEW CHAPTER...
I hope that the title of "NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE" won't appear again in my blog...
Do STAYED TUNED!!! XD

Next...
My college life...
Am going to IT which is Industry Training soon...
Around March I think...
Anyway...
Decided to stay in KL for the 6 months of training rather than going to PD...
Because I really very worry of my Baby King...
Will be separated with my friends for 6 months...
Feel lonely sometimes when thinking of it...
Haiz...
(Will continue this later...)

Last...
My DARLING...
Baby King...=D
Is in the pink of health...
A very bad temper same as his mother...
Haha...
Teething though...
Eats whatever you eats and whenever you eats...
Leaning how to talk also...
He was like an ECHO... X)

That's all for now...
Will update when free or maybe at least the UniFi had installed... =)

P/S : May not be going back to Penang due to financial problem...
Will try to have discussion with hubby tonight...

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Thirteen)

OMG!!!
The title of my NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE gets longer and longer...
By the time and if I can survive, not to divorce until it reach to 100...
I shall make publish it as a journal of my life...
LOL!!!

Well...
I don't remember what and where I had stopped even know I read the previous post...
Totally don't have any memories of it...
(or am I too lazy to refresh my brain)
Anyway...
Will update what is going on lately...

Oh Gosh!!!
Everything was so DAMN pack in my schedule recently...
Feel like a chain traffic accident occur...
Everything that is important to me CLASH all in a period of time...

Firstly...
My baby king of course...
He is teething again...
Need EXTRA attention on him...
Because during the period he will have fever and grab whatever thing and put inside his mouth...
And boy he is seriously very playful and naughty...
Can't say him naughty yet...
Can categorize him as he has a big curiosity...
Plus...
I am very very scare that he had Autism...
Because there is no one else free to play with him at my home...
(nowadays I am staying at my house)

Secondly...
My college things...
Our lecturer had gave us a presentation to do again...
As for my status now...
I am seriously feel very sorry to my group member as I feel like I don't contribute enough of the work on the presentation...
Well...
I really didn't do anything at all...
Besides on reading all the bunch of PDF files...
Not finding a clue of thing...
ISH!!! ><
Really DAMN mad at myself sometimes...

Thirdly...
Lun is having his depressing again...
I don't know this time what the hell is happening...
I asked him...
All he answered was...
NOTHING...
DON'T KNOW...
Well...
I have been having my period lately and my temper was not really that good...
Okay...
It was WORST than the real me...
Everything seems to PISSED me off since I had gave birth to baby king...
As I think and think and think of this issue whenever I walk, stand, taking trains or buses back home...
The result of it was...
I am not suitable for taking care or living with a person with sickness...
As myself is not a positive thinker and try not to be...
Because the result of it is DISAPPOINTMENT...
I can't bear with the feelings of feeling so and you have to stay strong and can't cry over the spill milk...
In the end...
I will keep it deep down and hide it until ONE DAY it BURST...

And because of Lun's depression...
There is another issue coming up again...
Well...
His parents of course need to find out what was going on...
So...
They call us for another lecturer session again...
And as usual a bunch of CRAPS talking...
And this time...
Through out the whole lecturing...
I looked at him all the time...
And didn't say a word about any of it...
Because I know if I let everything out without any evidence...
In the end is a waste of time, waste of energy and a waste of tears...

Both of his parents say that...
Don't look so far ahead...
Peacefully go through everyday of our life and there is enough...
OMG!!!
You want me to peacefully go through my life...
It means that MY LIFE = FLAT!!!
Oh shit!!!
Sorry to say that...
I am a risk taker...
I like adventurous stuff...
And the most important thing is I would like to do everything on my own if I have the time to learn it and understand it...
Besides this...
They did mention about moving away...
They say can slow slow find...
WTF!!!
I think that I bring him away from this house he's condition will be better...
The decision has been made...
I will still move out no matter he wanted to come along with me or not...
MARKED MY WORDS!!!

I know I am very stubborn...
So what...
This is me...

I only have few words to said to his parents :
清官难审家庭事，这是我们一家三口的事，我希望用我们自己的方法去解决！
你的儿子在你们的心目中永远都是一个好孩子，可是如果你们有机会读我的部落格（事实的全部），你们就不会这样想了！
你们不可以一直想要怎样保护自己的孩儿，应该放手让他们自己去闯，他们跌倒后，才会知道痛的滋味，这样他们才会把所经历的事情铭记于心！
不要说我说你们的不是，这其实是一个事实，伦会搞到这样的地步，是因为你们做父母的小小就把他关在家里，才会搞到他这样！

P/S: Oh God, if you really can hear me...
Please make him stop mumbling when he is sleeping...
I need some rest too...
I have still a part time training job have not done yet... ><''

放手...

什么是放手？

你不爱一个人了，
这不叫放手，
这叫放弃；
你移情别恋了，
这不叫放手，
最多只是转身就走。

相反，
爱一个人，
但发现（无论如何还是）相处不来，
唯有分开，这才叫做放手。

又或，
爱一个人，
但明白对方已经不爱自己了，
唯有忍痛退出，
也叫做放手。

《摘自某报纸的谋篇文章》

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Twelve)

I am seriously jumping with joy today because final exam results is OUT!!!
I got A- in my Front Office Procedure and Financial Accounting...
**CLAPS**

But thanks to Mr Chuah...
Thank you for ruin my day...

He suddenly message me that...

既然你没情，我何必对你有意，你不爱我孩子就归我，这早就说好的！
Through this, all I can say and think of is he married with me is because of the baby boy...
Plus, I didn't make any agreement on that statement...
你别说什么悔过书什么的！
Call you to write this regret letter is for you to think what have you done and is it right or wrong...
Plus a promise to me and baby king that you will not repeat the same mistake again...
你家经济能力不好还要供你姐妹读书，我看早已负债连连！
Well, this is my family problem...
You can't help any of that too...
在加上你们没有能力与时间顾孩子的环境下！
Like you have...
You everyday also got work...
Come back bath, eat dinner, play hand phone and watch television then sleep...
You where got time to play with your son?
All you do is throw baby to your mother to take care...
This kind of solution I won't so stupid to go and accept again...
Because the last last lecture from your father...
Told me that your mother would sit at home and think many many things such as why is she need to take care of baby king at home and I go out to work...
If like that her mother say she go out to work and I stay home to take care of baby...
**This kind of words make me think that you don't want me to study and work, you guys want me to stay at home to take care of baby...
Oh please, if you guys don't like me studying and working, then don't promise my mother in the first place to let me to finish my studies...
Sending him to the baby sitter is the best solution...
Baby sitter love him very much and all of their children treat baby king like their own brother...
Taught him to play, eat and talk...
你说法官会判孩子给你还是我！
I won't do things that I don't have confidence...
Even if I don't have any, I will still go on no matter what until I get what I want...
还有我和他的血缘才是正统的！
WHF does this mean?
... ... ...

共同抚养有很多方法，他还是姓蔡，就算你是他妈妈也没有权利独占他，除非你把我杀了，走你妈的后路或许有一丁点的希望可以让孩子转姓韦，这个月你就在你家，我在我家，你好好想想！
I didn't say anything about helping baby king to change his sir name...
He is still a member of the Chuah clan...
I didn't say that I want to owned baby king, you all can still visit him and play with him...
I also would like to stay at my mum's house, but my things are over there...
How am I going to go to college if my things are all over your house...
Stupid!!!
我不是逼你，只是想让你知道你所向往的自由会让你的未来付出残痛的代价！
All I know now is...
Leaving the you, I would be more happier, less worries and less stress...

**Redness = My thinking

WTF!!!
Seriously I don't know what and how to talk to him...
You guys be the judges this time...
Tell me what I should do?
Besides continue to 忍 him!
Totally no mood jor lor...
WTH!!!

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Eleven)

Gosh...
Finally got the time to write this...
As I was saying...
My son's father had his depression...
And this time last about a week...
He is now closely to a normal him already...
But still...
Pissed me off even more than I can stand...
All I can say is...
MEMANG BEH TAHAN!!!

About his depression...
I have no comments on it because it is beyond my control...
Even the 伍公佛祖 also have no comments about it...
But...
Last night I have something to comment about...
F*** YOU!!!

Baby King is crying out loud and I don't know what is happening...
And all he do is that lying on the bed and shut his eyes...
Can't you just console your son even know that he don't want you to hug him?
Everything also I have to do...
Luckily last night his sister have not went to bed yet...
So she did helped me a lot on making the medicine to console my Baby King...
Appreciated... =)

Then...
His father...
I know I'm not suppose to comment about his life plus it is not my house...
But...
What the hell is wrong with him?
Watch TV until late night is not a sin...
But turning the volume UP until in my room also can hear what the characters in the movie are talking...
Hello...
I have class the next morning...
I am lacking of sleep because your son don't want to help out...
And your grandson was not in a very comfortable condition...

Ya...
My dear Baby King...
Sick again...
The close friend of his came to visit him once more...
Haiz...

Seriously...
Am repeatedly asking myself why?
Why do I have to face this?
All of this?

Quarrel with my mum because I need always went to work and leave Baby King to her...
Quarrel with my mum because I overslept and not attending class due to work late the previous night...
Quarrel with my mum because I don't know...
That's how we communicate?
LOL!!!

P/S : I begged you to let me leave you whenever I wanted to...
Because I just want a way out from you and your family...
It's stressing me out...
I am so sorry to say that I don't like to follow the Rules and Regulations of your family...
Even know that you told me that no one in your family is going to like me after all the things I did...
I DO WHAT I LIKE!!!