NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Four)

Since this mother is not around...
I am actually according to them...
It's responsible for all the house chores...
Ya...
I know that I'm suppose to help out...
But shouldn't they help out a bit too?
Do I need to voice out every time?

It's been very very tired after school and work...
When reached home need to...
Sweep the floor...
Wipe the floor...
Wash the clothes...
Hang the clothes...
Wash dishes...
Put back everything to the right place that they left it just there after using it...
Some more...
At night need to take care of Hin Hin...
Luckily he sleeps until the next morning...

All this also never mind...
I can accept...
But something I really really can't accept what he had done to me this morning...

I won't forgive him no matter what...
Want to know what he did?

... ASK HIM!!! ...

After that...
He went to take his sister out to school...

Then...
When I woke up...
It's was 7.30am already...
It is considered late...
Because I haven't pack the things that was suppose to bring...

When I walked to the living room..
I saw him using my Lappie...
If he can opened means my password need to be change...
How can he do so?
Didn't his parents taught him that taking people's belongings without asking permission is wrong?
Know what he answered?
He said I DON'T LOVE HIM!

Does love equal to sex?
Does love means you have to give whatever the other half wants even you refuse to?
I don't think so...
In another words...
I OBJECT!!!

Since this is the case...
Then...
I rather DIVORCED...
And start a new life with my son...
I rather raise my son up by myself than counting on him or his family...
And there is a problem if I'm really going to DIVORCED...
He said he want Hin Hin...

What can I do?
God-Brother suggested that don't think any more...
Finish my studies while earn some money for my own if anything happened...
After that only see how and what to do...

This means that I had to be EXTREMELY patient for this two years...
ISH ISH ISH!!!

Am planning to record whatever they did wrong on here...
And if I decided to go...
I am going to write a list of this shits out on a paper...
And just leave the letter there...
And take Hin Hin out of the house and NEVER EVER come back...

Just by thinking of it makes me excited and very the DAMN happy... ^^

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Three)

For some reason...
Well...
The doctor didn't really know what is wrong also...
Most probably is cause by DEPRESSION...
His mother went in to hospital few days ago...

Went to visit her yesterday...
She was totally like a dead person lying on the bed...
Don't want to eat...
But luckily got drink some water...
Have high fever some more...

Since her condition was that bad...
So I had to sent Hin Hin to the baby sitter...
Because no one it's free to look after Hin Hin...

Before she went in to the hospital...
She was also like a nearly dead person...
She refuse to eat...
She would suddenly woke up and say want to take care of Hin Hin...

There's one time that she suddenly woke up...
And came out of the bedroom...
Sat on the floor and hug Hin Hin...
Then after I went to the kitchen to take water...
She had took Hin Hin to the bedroom...
Then I call him to take back Hin Hin...
But she refuse to give Hin Hin back..
She held Hin Hin so tight and Hin Hin cried...
I can't stand it anymore...
I went into the room and snatch Hin Hin back myself...
THIS IS SERIOUSLY WAY TOO SCARY!!!

I'm not going to let her take care of my son ever again...
Whether his family like it or not...

量子物理与生活

人的大脑
只会储存自己可以辨识的事物
也就是说
我们的大脑只能看得到
我们认为可能的事物

比方说：
当哥伦布发现美洲新大陆的时候
陆地上这些印地安人的眼中
根本看不到哥伦布的船
在他们大脑意识中
没有船的概念

如果大脑无法辨识
那么即使这样东西就在眼前
你也看不见

如何？
听起来很神气吧！
可是这是千真万确的事情哦！

如果还不明白
大家可以回想一下

当你坠入爱河时候
是不是总会有个人
突然而且刻意的出现在你的眼前
往往在人群中
总是一眼就能看到他

因为大脑辨识出他的存在
所以你的眼光会不由自主地一直注视着他
就算对方没有告诉你
即使只是存在于同一个空间里
你也会感受到对方的存在
甚至可以做些动作来强化自己在对方大脑里的辨识

所以爱是一种发现
发现本来就存在的那个人

给某人...

在2011年...

你想做我的誰？

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02♥…男朋友

03♥…情侣

04♥…情敵

05♥…死黨

06♥…我妹

07♥…我弟

08♥…我哥

09♥…我姐

10♥…会一直对我好的人

11♥…红颜知己

12♥…蓝颜知己

13♥…懂我的人

14♥…愛我的人

15♥…我愛的人

16♥…背后默默支持我的人

17♥…永远的好朋友

18♥…关心我的人

19♥…我所关心的人

20♥…死对头

21♥…好搭档

22♥…最熟悉的陌生人

23♥…情人

24♥…兄弟

25♥…最亲的人

♥ 我想做你一生中最熟悉的陌生人! ♥

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Two)

I really don't understand that...
Why us women need to do all the chores...
While the men do nothing at all except entertaining themselves...

In Chinese there is one word state that...
Rules are DEAD and the people are ALIVE...
It means that RULES ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN!!!

And this is why his mother always screamed TIRED...
That day I was happy because I get to sat down and do nothing and get my 20 ringgit...
But, he SPOILED the whole thing...
He suddenly told me that I need to study and sometimes take care of Hin...
Asked me to quit the job and just concentrate on those two...

Have he ever think of what about my TPM fund?
Is he gong to pay?
It's another EXTRA EXPENSE...
Where is he going to get the money?
ISH!!! ><

There are other things that make me PISSED OFF today...
The story start from...

The whole family was going out after I went back home to hand over the camera to sis...
Only left the 3 of us (Hubby, Hin and Me)...

Later on, I switch on my LAPPIE and go online...
Not long after that, Hin was crying so I make a bottle of milk for him to drink...
Then, half way through Hin was drinking the milk...
They came back...

And his younger sister came in to see Hin as an excuse...
After that, not even a word...
She walked to my desk and started to sit down and play her Facebook...
I was like...
WTF!!!

I looked at my hubby and he didn’t say a thing too…
I remembered the “little talk” that we and his parents had the other night…
His mother said: “You study so many years and get so much education you don’t have MORAL want is it?”
I was truly angry when she said so…
What about her daughter?
NO MANNERS AT ALL!!!

Think before you say others…
My hubby didn’t even stand up for me for the whole conversation…
As if it is my entire fault!

At that moment, I know I can’t count on this family…
The other thing was…

I was kind enough to borrow my LAPPIE to both of his brother…
They should have known the rules of using my LAPPIE and when to switch it off…
They play until the next morning…
When I was about to pack my bag, I asked LAPPIE from them…
I was like WTH when I knew that they play the whole night…
And from that moment on…
I SWEAR THAT I WON’T EVER LET THEM PLAY MY LAPPIE AGAIN!!!

I cooled down very fast after that…
But when I reached college, open my LAPPIE…
I saw the battery was like only 10% left…
Then, my temper starts to light up again…
I taught I gave them the power supply…
How come my battery just left TEN PERCENT?
IT IS TOO MUCH!!!

P/S : The only thing I did wrong for my entire life is...
I never voice out my opinion and what I want every time things happened...

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part One)

The reason I wanted to blog again...
It's because I need a place for me to express my feelings...
I usually express my feelings at facebook...
But...
There are too many relative on facebook...
So it means that no matter what I post they also will get to see it...
And maybe tell my IN-LAWS about it...
And FINALLY after the little talk that we had today...
The only thing in my mind was I WANT TO MOVE OUT!!!
And so I started to delete all the CHUAH's profile...
It feels good...
In fact...
GREAT!!! X)

After marriage...
I realize that the exterior of the family will always look good...
But the interior...
OMG!!!
Really can't stand it...

The problem to me was...
Mother-In-Law SPOILED their children very much...
During my pregnancy...
I still went to college...
Do my assignment...
And help to do some light house chores because some of the house chores they PANTANG pregnant lady to do...

I still remember that before I give birth...
She always tell me that Father-In-Law was late to deliver the food to her and she starved...
Because after a person gave birth and all the drama...
The person will be very tiring...
And need to eat to prevent the wind to go in...
At first I thought that...
She has been through she knows how it feels and she will prevent it happening to me...
Well...
I WAS WRONG!!!

I starved for quite a long time...
And because they PANTANG many things...
I can't eat the food that was ready from the hospital...
At last...
I starved and the wind got in my tummy...
And when the food prepared and arrived...
I had no appetite to eat already...
That is okay by me...
But...
When I told them that...
I got scolded...
And I had to force myself to eat...
ISH!!!

Updated News...

It's been a while that I had touch the blog...
So it's time to update this blog of mine...

Okay...
The last time I stopped was taking a NEW course...
Which is the Tourist Guide course...
Sponsored by the government...
Well...
After struggling and a lot of stress...
I FINALLY did it and got my license...
YAHOOOOOOOO!!!

Later on as promise to the government..
Had to do training in a travel agency at least for 3 months...
There are some unhappy things happened...
And I decided to QUIT!!!

I had make up my mind and wanted to study...
After persuaded my mum...
Finally she allowed me to study my Hotel Management course in Reliance College...^^

Not long after that...
I found out that I'm PREGNANT!!!
And it was already 5 months...
So had discuss with Alan about it and decided to keep the baby...
And then we got MARRIED...
And so the beginning of my life as a WIFE, a DAUGHTER-IN-LAW, a SISTER-IN-LAW and a MOTHER...

Photos of my Little King can be found at my FACEBOOK... =)