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NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Fourteen)

2012-02-04T19:04:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!
Say already don't wish to post this ever again...
But...
Still I have no choice...

Just now around 5:30pm...
I received a call from my hubby...
He say his father asked us want to go his uncle's house party or not...
Then I said okay lor...
Since I am not cooking and the original plan of going to eat steamboat with his friends were canceled...
Then he said that his father will go my house and pick my baby and go first...
So I si beh beh song lor...
I asked why every time also want to bring him go first?
Why can't we go as a family?
As only me, my hubby and my baby...
He then replied me that his father want to bring him go and play first...
Then I said don't have to do that...
We will go ourselves...
Then we hang up...

After hanging up the phone I was thinking...
Why their family like to suddenly asked people out?
Why can't their family let us know earlier so that we could plan our own things?
So I called my hubby again and asked...
Then I said I don't want to go already...
Since I am planning to go grocery shopping with my hubby and my baby at Tesco...
Then he said that he wanted to go to steamboat also...
I asked him not say canceled already de meh?
He replied that they decided to have a farewell party for one of his friend...
Then I asked how and which one he want to attend?
He told me that he wanted to go both...
Means after he finish work straight away go to his uncle's party and then go to his friend steamboat party again...
Then I said what about his spectacles?
(He dropped it on the floor and it was broken)
I told him to choose one event and can't be so greedy...
I told him that your uncle's party held on every year...
But your friend's farewell party wasn't...
I advised him to go to the farewell party because on the other hand I rather go to the farewell party to be myself rather then smiling all the night and don't know what on earth are his relatives talking about as I don't know how to talk or listen to Teochew...
So he take the advise and called his father...

Few minutes later...
He SMS me that his father is going to called me later...
Then I called him to asked what is going on...
He told me that his father said we promised them that we will go during CNY...
Then I said I don't remember and don't recall any of this at all...
Then he said that they promised his aunt to bring baby attend the party...
I was like WTH!!!
He is my baby and I am his mother...
When I needed his parents to help me on taking care of baby King while am still studying and what negative stories and bull shits they gave me...
Now baby is getting bigger and more easy to take care of...
I feel like they were trying to take him away from me and the reason they want their son to marry me is also because of the baby!!!
So DAMN angry and posted this on the FACEBOOK where I had approved the Chuah's that had added me again since I had deleted them...

Now...
Seriously have no idea what is happening...
F**K~~~ ><''

NEW CHAPTER IN LIFE (Part One)

2012-02-02T17:01:00.005+08:00

Well...
It had been a month since I had moved out with my hubby and my baby King...
I have too say so far so good la...
UniFi's technician had came finally...
Means that I can update my blog if I have the time...
But...
Need to start to pay the bills already...
Haiz...

Let me introduce my new house to you...
Had 3 bedrooms and a bathroom...
It is not a very big house but it is enough for the 3 of us...

Oh ya...
Besides the 3 of us...
There is one person that wanted to treat herself as a stranger and stay at my house for the time being...
So one of the rooms had been rented out to her...
Which makes me sometimes quite mad about her...
Initially I thought of helping her to save money for not renting a room for her but letting her to sleep a bed with a bed frame...
Then she said she feels like depending on others...
And sat there cried...
WTF!!!

No matter you are staying with who and where...
You are still depending on others to rent a room for you...
The difference is that whether the owner is living with you or not...
She say she rather pay me for a room...
And that is what she wants...
I'll give her what she wants then...
Means that our relationship now is that house owner and tenants...
That's all...
Really damn mad at her...

Recently had quarrel with her as I bought a very good friend up to stay for the night at my house...
And she said I didn't introduce to her...
Then...
I answered that she is my friend...
She said friend also have name...
Then I forgot what I had said...
Then the next thing I knew it she slammed the door...
I was so mad I said I was kind enough to shelter to let her live here, I do not need to see her facial expression...

The reason I let her stay her with me is that she rang me in the middle of the night telling me that her housemates are all moving out and she don't know what to do due to the college will be moving to somewhere near station CSL and etc...
Well...
I gave her a solution and she took it...

Now...
Giving all the headaches stuff...
First, I introduce a tour guide job to her since the pay is much higher than working as a waitress in a restaurant...
And when things aren't going well as I shared my experience of leading a tour to her...
I didn't face anything big also...
And when she faced it she find me and like raising her voice up and it was like it is all my fault...
As I know she called others to look for advices and solutions...
Advices we gave, solutions we gave...
Decisions it's all hers...
Still giving us the black face look again...
Seriously beh tahan her...
I SWEAR I WON'T INTRODUCE ANOTHER JOB TO HER AGAIN NO MATTER HOW HIGH IS THE PAY...

Then...
Bringing friends over without letting me know earlier...
Okay...
Fine...
All of them I knew also...
So I didn't say anything la...
What time come back or going where else also didn't say...
I know it is not my business on knowing whatever you are doing...
But still you are living in my house and it is my responsibility if anything happens to you...
ISH...

If you really read this...
I just want to tell you that...
Not everyone can treat you as well as I did...
I wanted to treat you as a family and you don't want...
It's fine with me...
Please change your temper before my limits of breaks off and everything gets ugly...
Not everything can be as you want and as you like...
With your temper you have gone through a lot and you know and won't want it to happen again...
The only solution is changing it no matter you like it or not...
Please think about it and one more thing...
Don't call and gets panic when things gets wrong...
And when you do called and ask for an advice or solution...
Take it or leave it, don't cry over it...

That's all for now...
It's time to cook dinner...
Bye... =)

Back...

2012-01-13T21:32:00.002+08:00

I saw the last time I blogged...
It was 26th of July 2011...

Today is 13th of January 2012...
OMG!!!
DAMN LOOOOOOOONG I never update my blog... ><

Okay...
As usual I have STML...
So will just update what had happened recently...

FINALLY!!!
I had moved out to my NEW house...
It is very near to my mum's home as well as the LRT... =)
Really thanks to my mum for the house and everything...

Today is the forth day of my so called "BRAND NEW LIFE"... =D
This story of my BRAND NEW LIFE will be told on a BRAND NEW CHAPTER...
I hope that the title of "NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE" won't appear again in my blog...
Do STAYED TUNED!!! XD

Next...
My college life...
Am going to IT which is Industry Training soon...
Around March I think...
Anyway...
Decided to stay in KL for the 6 months of training rather than going to PD...
Because I really very worry of my Baby King...
Will be separated with my friends for 6 months...
Feel lonely sometimes when thinking of it...
Haiz...
(Will continue this later...)

Last...
My DARLING...
Baby King...=D
Is in the pink of health...
A very bad temper same as his mother...
Haha...
Teething though...
Eats whatever you eats and whenever you eats...
Leaning how to talk also...
He was like an ECHO... X)

That's all for now...
Will update when free or maybe at least the UniFi had installed... =)

P/S : May not be going back to Penang due to financial problem...
Will try to have discussion with hubby tonight...

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Thirteen)

2011-07-26T23:43:00.003+08:00

OMG!!!
The title of my NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE gets longer and longer...
By the time and if I can survive, not to divorce until it reach to 100...
I shall make publish it as a journal of my life...
LOL!!!

Well...
I don't remember what and where I had stopped even know I read the previous post...
Totally don't have any memories of it...
(or am I too lazy to refresh my brain)
Anyway...
Will update what is going on lately...

Oh Gosh!!!
Everything was so DAMN pack in my schedule recently...
Feel like a chain traffic accident occur...
Everything that is important to me CLASH all in a period of time...

Firstly...
My baby king of course...
He is teething again...
Need EXTRA attention on him...
Because during the period he will have fever and grab whatever thing and put inside his mouth...
And boy he is seriously very playful and naughty...
Can't say him naughty yet...
Can categorize him as he has a big curiosity...
Plus...
I am very very scare that he had Autism...
Because there is no one else free to play with him at my home...
(nowadays I am staying at my house)

Secondly...
My college things...
Our lecturer had gave us a presentation to do again...
As for my status now...
I am seriously feel very sorry to my group member as I feel like I don't contribute enough of the work on the presentation...
Well...
I really didn't do anything at all...
Besides on reading all the bunch of PDF files...
Not finding a clue of thing...
ISH!!! ><
Really DAMN mad at myself sometimes...

Thirdly...
Lun is having his depressing again...
I don't know this time what the hell is happening...
I asked him...
All he answered was...
NOTHING...
DON'T KNOW...
Well...
I have been having my period lately and my temper was not really that good...
Okay...
It was WORST than the real me...
Everything seems to PISSED me off since I had gave birth to baby king...
As I think and think and think of this issue whenever I walk, stand, taking trains or buses back home...
The result of it was...
I am not suitable for taking care or living with a person with sickness...
As myself is not a positive thinker and try not to be...
Because the result of it is DISAPPOINTMENT...
I can't bear with the feelings of feeling so and you have to stay strong and can't cry over the spill milk...
In the end...
I will keep it deep down and hide it until ONE DAY it BURST...

And because of Lun's depression...
There is another issue coming up again...
Well...
His parents of course need to find out what was going on...
So...
They call us for another lecturer session again...
And as usual a bunch of CRAPS talking...
And this time...
Through out the whole lecturing...
I looked at him all the time...
And didn't say a word about any of it...
Because I know if I let everything out without any evidence...
In the end is a waste of time, waste of energy and a waste of tears...

Both of his parents say that...
Don't look so far ahead...
Peacefully go through everyday of our life and there is enough...
OMG!!!
You want me to peacefully go through my life...
It means that MY LIFE = FLAT!!!
Oh shit!!!
Sorry to say that...
I am a risk taker...
I like adventurous stuff...
And the most important thing is I would like to do everything on my own if I have the time to learn it and understand it...
Besides this...
They did mention about moving away...
They say can slow slow find...
WTF!!!
I think that I bring him away from this house he's condition will be better...
The decision has been made...
I will still move out no matter he wanted to come along with me or not...
MARKED MY WORDS!!!

I know I am very stubborn...
So what...
This is me...

I only have few words to said to his parents :
清官难审家庭事，这是我们一家三口的事，我希望用我们自己的方法去解决！
你的儿子在你们的心目中永远都是一个好孩子，可是如果你们有机会读我的部落格（事实的全部），你们就不会这样想了！
你们不可以一直想要怎样保护自己的孩儿，应该放手让他们自己去闯，他们跌倒后，才会知道痛的滋味，这样他们才会把所经历的事情铭记于心！
不要说我说你们的不是，这其实是一个事实，伦会搞到这样的地步，是因为你们做父母的小小就把他关在家里，才会搞到他这样！

P/S: Oh God, if you really can hear me...
Please make him stop mumbling when he is sleeping...
I need some rest too...
I have still a part time training job have not done yet... ><''

放手...

2011-07-21T17:20:00.004+08:00

什么是放手？

你不爱一个人了，
这不叫放手，
这叫放弃；
你移情别恋了，
这不叫放手，
最多只是转身就走。

相反，
爱一个人，
但发现（无论如何还是）相处不来，
唯有分开，这才叫做放手。

又或，
爱一个人，
但明白对方已经不爱自己了，
唯有忍痛退出，
也叫做放手。

《摘自某报纸的谋篇文章》

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Twelve)

2011-07-06T15:06:00.004+08:00

I am seriously jumping with joy today because final exam results is OUT!!!
I got A- in my Front Office Procedure and Financial Accounting...
**CLAPS**

But thanks to Mr Chuah...
Thank you for ruin my day...

He suddenly message me that...

既然你没情，我何必对你有意，你不爱我孩子就归我，这早就说好的！
Through this, all I can say and think of is he married with me is because of the baby boy...
Plus, I didn't make any agreement on that statement...
你别说什么悔过书什么的！
Call you to write this regret letter is for you to think what have you done and is it right or wrong...
Plus a promise to me and baby king that you will not repeat the same mistake again...
你家经济能力不好还要供你姐妹读书，我看早已负债连连！
Well, this is my family problem...
You can't help any of that too...
在加上你们没有能力与时间顾孩子的环境下！
Like you have...
You everyday also got work...
Come back bath, eat dinner, play hand phone and watch television then sleep...
You where got time to play with your son?
All you do is throw baby to your mother to take care...
This kind of solution I won't so stupid to go and accept again...
Because the last last lecture from your father...
Told me that your mother would sit at home and think many many things such as why is she need to take care of baby king at home and I go out to work...
If like that her mother say she go out to work and I stay home to take care of baby...
**This kind of words make me think that you don't want me to study and work, you guys want me to stay at home to take care of baby...
Oh please, if you guys don't like me studying and working, then don't promise my mother in the first place to let me to finish my studies...
Sending him to the baby sitter is the best solution...
Baby sitter love him very much and all of their children treat baby king like their own brother...
Taught him to play, eat and talk...
你说法官会判孩子给你还是我！
I won't do things that I don't have confidence...
Even if I don't have any, I will still go on no matter what until I get what I want...
还有我和他的血缘才是正统的！
WHF does this mean?
... ... ...

共同抚养有很多方法，他还是姓蔡，就算你是他妈妈也没有权利独占他，除非你把我杀了，走你妈的后路或许有一丁点的希望可以让孩子转姓韦，这个月你就在你家，我在我家，你好好想想！
I didn't say anything about helping baby king to change his sir name...
He is still a member of the Chuah clan...
I didn't say that I want to owned baby king, you all can still visit him and play with him...
I also would like to stay at my mum's house, but my things are over there...
How am I going to go to college if my things are all over your house...
Stupid!!!
我不是逼你，只是想让你知道你所向往的自由会让你的未来付出残痛的代价！
All I know now is...
Leaving the you, I would be more happier, less worries and less stress...

**Redness = My thinking

WTF!!!
Seriously I don't know what and how to talk to him...
You guys be the judges this time...
Tell me what I should do?
Besides continue to 忍 him!
Totally no mood jor lor...
WTH!!!

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Eleven)

2011-06-29T16:25:00.003+08:00

Gosh...
Finally got the time to write this...
As I was saying...
My son's father had his depression...
And this time last about a week...
He is now closely to a normal him already...
But still...
Pissed me off even more than I can stand...
All I can say is...
MEMANG BEH TAHAN!!!

About his depression...
I have no comments on it because it is beyond my control...
Even the 伍公佛祖 also have no comments about it...
But...
Last night I have something to comment about...
F*** YOU!!!

Baby King is crying out loud and I don't know what is happening...
And all he do is that lying on the bed and shut his eyes...
Can't you just console your son even know that he don't want you to hug him?
Everything also I have to do...
Luckily last night his sister have not went to bed yet...
So she did helped me a lot on making the medicine to console my Baby King...
Appreciated... =)

Then...
His father...
I know I'm not suppose to comment about his life plus it is not my house...
But...
What the hell is wrong with him?
Watch TV until late night is not a sin...
But turning the volume UP until in my room also can hear what the characters in the movie are talking...
Hello...
I have class the next morning...
I am lacking of sleep because your son don't want to help out...
And your grandson was not in a very comfortable condition...

Ya...
My dear Baby King...
Sick again...
The close friend of his came to visit him once more...
Haiz...

Seriously...
Am repeatedly asking myself why?
Why do I have to face this?
All of this?

Quarrel with my mum because I need always went to work and leave Baby King to her...
Quarrel with my mum because I overslept and not attending class due to work late the previous night...
Quarrel with my mum because I don't know...
That's how we communicate?
LOL!!!

P/S : I begged you to let me leave you whenever I wanted to...
Because I just want a way out from you and your family...
It's stressing me out...
I am so sorry to say that I don't like to follow the Rules and Regulations of your family...
Even know that you told me that no one in your family is going to like me after all the things I did...
I DO WHAT I LIKE!!!

The Black Formal Wednesday...

2011-06-24T15:54:00.003+08:00

Yes...
Coming back to the Wednesday that I was talking about in the previous post...
Here goes...

That day...
I woke up quite early because I mistaken taught that the class was in the morning session...
On the way to the college...
It was weird that I had never received any SMS from this close friend of mine...
Normally she is the one who came the most early and tell us what classes are we in...

Then...
The moment I went up to the 6th floor to look at the schedule...
OMG!!!
My class was in the afternoon session...
So...
With nothing to do...
I started to do the itinerary comparison to Cambodia and...
I go McD to buy the buy 1 free one promotion nuggets...
Because the other close friend of mine wasn't in the mood due to some reason...
I bought the nuggets taught that it would cheer her up...
But...
She doesn't want to eat at all...
It was kind of a disappointment for me...
But anyway come to think of it...
She didn't put a gun to me and force me buy so end of story...

Then...
The RSC members had meeting so I went to the classroom myself...
It was seriously very cold...
Way too cold in the room...
And I sat in the front row of the classroom...
Because the lecturer that taught us was not a very good in lecturing so I taught I sit in front in order to let myself pay attention as I am have NO INTEREST when in comes to the word MARKETING...

When break...
She, the close friend of mine that scolded me...
Started to say that everyone moved to the front and only left her and the other at the back (second row)...
*First of all...
People like to sit where ever they like according to their needs, wants and mood...
You can't control that...
Then...
She say every time she choose the coldest place to sit is because she wanted us to sit together in a row and because of we are scare of cold...
*Second of all...
I know that you are a considerate girl...
You sit the coldest place is because you care about us...
I get it...
But if you were cold...
You can choose not to sit that place...
And I never force you to do so...
Then...
She scolded me that I didn't think of others when I sat on people's place...
*HELLO!!!
There are no names and no rules state that from the beginning of the class where ever you sit it will be your place until the 2 years course finish...

Seriously, I can't think of the thing that I do was a mistake...
The way you scolded me seriously broke my heart and make me think of the incident way back from my secondary school...
Plus, you make me cry for the whole session of the class after break with lack of tissues...

The incident that happened in my secondary years was...
There is this once very very close friend of mine...
We can't continued to be friends is because that she taught that I had do something to let her boyfriend to leave her...
Then...
After all these drama...
She finally found out that I had nothing to do with it and the reason that her boyfriend wanted to leave her is because he found another girl...
Then...
She wanted to make it up with me and so she just act nothing happened and say she forgive me...
WTF!!!

Of course it was too late...
My heart seriously had broke in to pieces...
**No one ever knows the pain that is unless he/she had been through it...
After this, I had not been to school for about 3 to 4 months because I don't want to see her and cried again...
And the silly thing I did was I cut my hand...

And it leave a scar there forever to always remind me of the things that she put me through...

This time...
It was not about any relationship problem but instead of because that I've moved to the front row...
Am not going to be that stupid to cut my hand again...
And not going to college for classes...
Because college is not the same as secondary school...
Once you missed the class and that's it...
Am not going to sacrifice again...
Because I need a good grad to get a good job in order to let my family and my son to live in a better live...

But...
I will do as I said...
I will sit at the back from now on...
No matter I can hear what the lecturer is talking about or not...
Because from the time being...
I am hurt, I am stress and I am stubborn...

P/S : Sitting behind doesn't mean that I am still angry or what ever...
I just saw the message that you sent today when break...
And I am happy to hear that the bulat is chasing you?
Congrats... Take the opportunity for not being single anymore and experience the love life for once is good for your health and soul too... =)

Ups and Downs...

2011-06-24T14:14:00.002+08:00

Here I am blogging again...
Seriously have no idea who and how to express my feelings during this ups and downs week of mine...

For starters...
My son's father start his depression around Monday...
Then...
Been scolded by a close friend of mine on Wednesday...
Later...
Received the prize that I've won in the contest on Thursday...

Any further information about my Monday and Wednesday...
Will blog if when i have the mood later on...

About Thursday...
Early in the morning had woke up because had to accompany Lyn to Maluri Jaya Jusco...
The reason that she wanted to be there so early is because that it is the LAST day of member's day...
And OMG!!!
So many damn nice T-shirts and shoes were on 70% sales...
And I am broke and couldn't buy anything...
Then...
We went to PDI where Lyn bought me a T for my early birthday present... ^^

And mum agreed to bought something for me too...
And I choose to buy a flat white sandal...^^

Thanks mum and sis for the T and the sandal... x)

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Ten)

2011-06-14T01:08:00.004+08:00

Ya...
I admit that I was wrong checking his messages...
But...
When a woman got a feeling of doing so...
That's mean there is something not right...

I checked his phone just now...
And guess what shocking things I found out...
He had phone sex with another girl named 欣怡...
WTH...

Ya...
I know that we are going to divorce sooner or later...
But...
Not now...
We are still husband and wife...
Phone sex?
No wonder he was in the toilet for so damn long yesterday night...

My feeling now are complicated...
On one side I feel a little sadness...
And on the other I think I can sue him for doing that...
And maybe get some 赡养费 from him after we divorce...
And maybe I'll have Baby King's custody...
And...
Back to reality...

Of course...
I was dumb enough not to send all the messages over to my phone the moment I saw those messages...
It was truly shocking for me...
And now...
He deleted all the evidence even the contact number of the girl...
WTF!!!

Let's pray that he do it again and I won't be so dumb for the next time...
**Fingers cross...**

P/S : I won't cry...I won't cry...I won't cry...I won't cry...I won't cry...I won't cry...I won't cry...I won't cry...I won't cry...I won't cry...
Good luck on my final tomorrow... =(

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Nine)

2011-06-07T00:36:00.003+08:00

BEH TAHAN!!!
MEMANG BEH TAHAN ALREADY!!!
ISH!!!

What the hell...
Your parents as usual went back to Penang without saying a word or giving any hint...
Yet still say me don't have moral?
BULLSHIT!!!

That action of yours makes me feel more and think more that I'm not one of the family...
Seriously...
I don't feel I am anymore...
So don't blame me if I was planning to leave...

Today was the day where we celebrate 端午节...
Mum knew that nobody is going to cook for the two of you and she asked to join us for dinner...
You promised to come a couple of days ago...
And look what you did to pissed my family...
First...
You should have give me a SMS say that you are still working after your afternoon shift ends which is on 9.30pm...
Or if you couldn't call my phone at least try to call my mum, my sister or my house phone and inform...
All of this...
Common sense and it is a basic courtesy that a person should have...
Guess what...
Your parents have mouth to say me but they didn't taught their children to do so...
WTF!!!

Second of all...
Because of you telling me that you are bringing your brother here to eat...
Mum cooked a lot of rice and a lot of dishes just for the both of you...
And look what you did?
My sister can't eat the curry fish just mum want to save it for you...
And when it is almost about 12am...
My mum asked my sister and she don't want to have it anymore because it is very late already...
And there goes the curry fish!!!

Third...
Because of you always so late come to pick me and baby King up...
Mum set a rule on not allowing anybody in and out after 12am...
And what you did these few days didn't impress my family or me at all...
You just make the things even worst...
Just the night before yesterday...
I told you that I wanted to go home early so that I can wash my hair, have a bath, do some revision and some data entry...
I even had an agreement with mum to take care of baby King for the night so that I can have the time to help you guys to fold that mountain of clothes which your mother left before leaving...
But you...
You are too late when you came here...
Seriously I don't know what you all are doing during that time...
Mum had locked all the gates...
And chased all of us to sleep...
Even so...
I still am laying on the bed and waited for at least a SMS or a phone from you...
I fell asleep...
The next morning I checked...
I was hoping that there is at least 1 or 2 calls or SMS from you...
But that disappoint me a lot...
Not a single call or message on my phone screen...
WTF!!!

And then...
The previous night...
If you are going to be late...
Can't you please SMS me or give me a call?
What are you doing with the new phone that you got for RM 300 right after you got your salary?
Playing games or communicating with people?
WTF!!!

Every night have to watch TV until late at night...
Then...
Play phone games until the next morning only sleep...
Who the hell do I marry with?
A 21 years old children?
It's not that a sin that you play phone games...
The problem is you don't want to help by keep an eye on baby King while I am working home trying to get extra income in order to make our lives better...
How could you throw all the work to me?
You are the husband or I am the husband?
I am suppose to feed you or you are suppose to feed me?
WTH!!!

Going to have dinner with your brother and cousin at Connaught...
That place where you were going was not cheap at all...
And you asked me whether I want to go or not...
I said no because I wanted to finish the data entry as soon as possible...
I told you buy something for me and guess what you say...
I DON'T HAVE MONEY...
WTF!!!
I am starving to death as my mum didn't cook previous night...
Then...
I just go to the kitchen to have some biscuit and sky juice...
You have money to spend on petrol going to Connaught to eat...
You have money to spend on expensive dinner...
You have money to pamper yourself to buy a new phone...
But when I asked money from you to buy pampers and medicine...
You said : Can I pay you back next week?
You know what?
I WANT A DIVORCE IMMEDIATELY!!!

Seriously...
I don't know why the hell I marry you the first place...
(Of course as you guys know, I just wanted his father's name in the baby's birth certificate...)
Now most of all the things are mostly paid by my mum...
All I know now is...
MUM IS THE BEST!!!
She helps me take care of baby King even know she just had her surgery...
I am so grateful to have her as my mum...

Speaking of the surgery...
I told you that she is having her surgery...
Any yet, as a son-in-law...
Shouldn't you at least asked how is she doing or buy something for her?
You just acted like you don't know!!!
That is how your parents taught you right?

And as I said...
Mum lock the gates after 12am...
Ya...
I know you had come...
You called...
Mum is angry...
She ordered us not to pick up the phone...
She is the boss...
Of course we have to listen to her...
And yet...
You climb into our gate...
You think this is very cool is it?
You could have get caught if there is police petroling around the area...
As what you did...
You scared the hell of me and my family...
You make my mum even more pissed!!!

I am not going back with you and you ask for it!!!

一旦傷害了，那就將永遠彌補不回來...

2011-06-02T13:32:00.003+08:00

每个人的一生中都会有许多重要的事！

在我生命里，
除了家人朋友，
对我最重要的莫过于是一场婚礼！

从求婚到摆酒，
每一点一滴我都希望它是完美的，
无瑕疵的！

可是偏偏在这么重要的日子中，
所有的一切一切对我来说，
只有三个字：糟透了！

大着肚子结婚，
婚纱自然没有那么多的选择！

其实不是最近聊到，
我都不知道，
当天晚上两家人来我家谈我们两的事的时候，
是叫做提亲！

两家人的第一次见面，
迟到，
又没告诉对方有谁会出席，
这叫不尊重！

自己跟孩子的爸爸商量好要生完才结婚，
可是孩子的爸爸却没出声说半句，
一个怀孕的女人，
哪来的勇气与体力去反抗呢？

自己想要的解决方法，
对于传统思想的长辈们，
他们是不会接受的！

孩子我要生，
毕竟他是一个小生命，
但婚我不想结！

谈完了，
就要准备送聘礼的时候了！

送聘礼时，
又迟到！
这算有诚意吗？

结婚是要买新家私，
我也不明白为什么！
买家私，
他妈说本来女方就应该买家私的，
可她说她不计较，
就出钱买了！

我心想：你不买我也没逼你！

结婚当天，
时间安排得好好的，
帮我弄头发的阿姨走了两个钟，
帮我化妆的事他的亲戚才来，
化的妆又花了两个钟！

本来结婚当天，
要迎娶新娘的新郎本应就该给姐妹玩个够啊！
可他又迟来耽误了时辰！

本来这不应该提的人，
我也忍不住想在此大骂了！
他就是我的姐夫，
听姐妹说不是你在那边讲东讲西的，
他们早就玩得很开心了！

玩完了，
开门接新娘就应该给开门红包，
没钱就不要去我啊！
才给那RM0.88的开门红包！
又没有搞错？

没办法之下我只能忍下去！

到了要开车接新娘回去时，
新娘车却坏了！
从那一刻起，
我很相信这是天意！
天也许在给我时间反悔！
可是我却默默地坐在那边，
心不停的流泪！

车弄好了，
接新娘回去了，
一大班的亲戚等着我来敬茶！

敬到连大KAM姐也累了，
终于三点才结束！

然后又要跟他亲朋戚友争厕所冲凉!

当时在房间怀着的新娘，
肚子好饿好饿，
跟新郎说了，
他竟敢叫我自己下去拿！

下到去，
剩下的只有汁！

我和姐妹们饿到要死~

累了，
就小睡了一下！

一直担心会迟到的新娘，
都睡不着！

时间到了，
是该梳头化妆准备晚上的宴会的时候了，
问新郎化妆师呢？
在睡觉，
新郎却不会吵醒她！

等到她醒了，
冲凉换衣再为自己化妆，
准备好自己了，
第一时间却不是来跟新娘化妆，
而是跟他妈化妆弄头发！

都已经六点了，
新娘子才开始化妆弄头发！

途中，
他父母还要崔三崔四！
一个大肚婆动作稍微慢一点这都不可以体谅一下吗？
化完了弄完了，
照照镜子，
只看到一个奸妃！

还问OK吗？
当时已经八点了！
就算不OK也要说OK,
因为已经很迟了！

换衣服的时候，
我不明白的是，
为什么是他的小姨帮我换还叫我姐妹出去！

去酒家途中，
新娘只能偷偷的流泪！
心情很沮丧了！
去到那边已经九点了！
吃完了，
还要留下来，
强颜欢笑的跟他所有的亲朋戚友拍照！

试问一个这样糟的结婚回忆，
又谁要提起呢？

剩下来的结婚照拍不拍也罢了！
结婚已经是一个糟透的回忆！
拍了婚纱照，
如果某天再拿去来看，
坐在一旁流泪的只有自己！

这种种的情绪，
要一个怀孕的少女一人去承受，
到现在才来崩溃，
留着眼泪，
情绪不稳定的写这篇结婚记，
这位少女我认为，
她是最棒的！

也已到了忍无可忍的时候了！

P/S : I dare to post this, I'm not afraid of you anymore!

一旦傷害了，那就將永遠彌補不回來...

六十句

2011-06-02T13:19:00.001+08:00

1. 人生就像一杯茶，不会苦一辈子，但总会苦一阵子。

2. 低头要有勇气，抬头要有底气。

3. 傻与不傻，要看你会不会装傻。

4. 幸福是可以通过学习来获得的，尽管它不是我们的母语。

5. 不要见一个爱一个，爱的太多，你的爱就要贬值。

6. 想完全了解一个男人，最好别做他的恋人，而做他的朋友。

7. 朋友就是把你看透了，还能喜欢你的人。

8. 当我们搬开别人架下的绊脚石时，也许恰恰是在为自己铺路。

9. 如果说我懂的道理比别人多一点，那是因为我犯的错误比别人多一点。

10. 不是每句“对不起”，都能换来“没关系”。

11. 世界上只有想不通的人，没有走不通的路。

12. 地球是运动的，一个人不会永远处在倒霉的位置。

13. 走的最急的是最美的景色，伤的最深的是最真的感情。

14. 在事实面前，我们的想象力越发达，后果就越不堪设想。

15. 当别人开始说你是疯子的时候，你离成功就不远了 ……

16. 你永远看不见我眼里的泪，因为你不在时我才会哭泣。

17. 时间就像一张网，你撒在哪里，你的收获就在哪里。

18. 如果我能够看到自己的背影，我想它一定很忧伤，因为我把快乐都留在了前面。

19. 理想和现实总是有差距的，幸好还有差距，不然，谁还稀罕理想？

20. 任何人都可以变得狠毒，只要你尝试过嫉妒。

21. 爱情就像攥在手里的沙子，攥的越紧，流失的越快。

22. 成熟不是心变老，而是眼泪在眼里打转却还保持微笑。

23. 做与不做的最大区别是：后者拥有对前者的评论权。

24. 人，长得漂亮不如活的漂亮。

25. 有些事，明知是错的，也要去坚持，因为不甘心；有些人，明知是爱的，也要去放弃，因为没有结局；有时候，明知没路了，却还在前进，因为习惯了。

26. 同样的一瓶饮料，便利店里 2 块钱，五星饭店里 60 块，很多的时候，一个人的价值取决于所在的位置。

27. 每个人出生的时候都是原创，可悲的是很多人渐渐都成了盗版。

28. 真坏人并不可怕，可怕的是假好人。

29. 浪漫是一袭美丽的晚礼服，但你不能一天到晚都穿着它。

30. 把一切平凡的事做好即不平凡，把一切简单的事做好即不简单。

31. 把不忙不闲的工作做的出色，把不咸不淡的生活过得精彩。

32. 情侣间最矛盾的地方就是幻想彼此的未来，却惦记着对方的过去。

33. 忙碌是一种幸福，让我们没时间体会痛苦；奔波是一种快乐，让我们真实地感受生活；疲惫是一种享受，让我们无暇空虚。

34. 理想很丰满，现实很骨感。

35. 爱情永远比婚姻圣洁，婚姻永远比爱情实惠。

36. 探索的旅程不在于发现新大陆，而在于培养新视角。

37. 一个人能走多远，要看他有谁同行；一个人有多优秀，要看他有谁指点；一个人有多成功，要看他有谁相伴。

38. 叹气是最浪费时间的事情，哭泣是最浪费力气的行径。

39. 不是人人都能活的低调，可以低调的基础是随时都能高调。

40. 谈恋爱就像剥洋葱，总有一层会让你流泪。

41. 年轻时候，拍下许多照片，摆在客厅给别人看；等到老了，才明白照片是拍给自己看的。

42. 就算不快乐也不要皱眉，因为你永远不知道谁会爱上你的笑容。

43. 当大部分人都在关注你飞的高不高时，只有少部分人关心你飞的累不累，这就是友情。

44. 绝口不提不是因为忘记，而是因为铭记。

45. 让未来到来，让过去过去。

46. 微小的幸福就在身边，容易满足就是天堂。

47. 成功有个副作用，就是以为过去的做法同样适应于将来。

48. 天使之所以会飞，是因为她们把自己看得很轻 ……

49. 试金可以用火，试女人可以用金，试男人可以用女人。

50. 喜欢一个人，就是在一起很开心；爱一个人，就是即使不开心，也想在一起。

51. 幽默就是一个人想哭的时候还有笑的兴致。

52. 咖啡苦与甜，不在于怎么搅拌，而在于是否放糖；一段伤痛，不在于怎么忘记，而在于是否有勇气重新开始。

53. 人之所以活得累，是因为放不下架子，撕不开面子，解不开情节。

54. 漂亮只能为别人提供眼福，却不一定换到幸福。

55. 美丽让男人停下，智慧让男人留下。

56. 人生最精彩的不是实现梦想的瞬间，而是坚持梦想的过程。

57. 忍无可忍，就重新再忍。

58. 付出真心，才会得到真心，却可能伤的彻底；保持距离，才能保护自己，却注定永远寂寞。

59. 废话是人际关系的第一句。

60. 有时候，不是对方不在乎你，而是你把对方看的太重。

蔡沁轩

2011-05-30T14:43:00.000+08:00

你知道为什么世上一天内会有怎么多人死亡吗？
就是因为你的那张嘴！

一张嘴，
可以害死很多人！
甚至可以把一个完整的家搞得乱七八糟！

就因为受不了群众的压力，
导致一个正常人变得不正常！
这个不正常的人到最后也受不了压力自杀了！

我就在中间半天吊，
因为我离不开也逃不掉！

只因为你，
蔡沁轩！

Bad Mood...

2011-05-30T14:30:00.001+08:00

Am not going to tolerate...
No matter you like it or not...
I want to FOCUS on my studies and my Baby King's health...
Parents don't have the right to step in when problems occurs between us and give whatever comment they think...

The elders are the one who always taught us not to talk people behind their backs...
And look what they are doing?
Your generation of thinking doesn't fit in this 21st century...
So please let me do it my way with my life...
I would very much appreciate that...

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Eight)

2011-05-22T21:40:00.005+08:00

Long time did not update what has been going on...
Now finally have the time to do so...
Here goes another annoying story from me...

Well...
He went to Korea as planned...
It was a company trip...
He was gone for almost a week...
And HOORAY for me...
Because am staying at my house with Baby King...

It was nothing...
Everything was so peaceful...
Except for Baby King was teething...
So for almost the whole week it was suffering because of having fever, flu, cough and so on...
Took him to the doctor and the doctor gave him about 7 kinds of medicine to eat...
Poor him...
But the happy days didn't last long...
When he break the news to me that...
He had spend all his money to buy a very expensive boots in Korea...
All he left was just the babysitter's salary...
I was like WTF...

I know that this is your first time out take flight and out from this country...
But you don't have to spend all of your money and buy things you don't really need...
Plus...
Where got such stupid people will went to Korea and buy Adidas boots?
And because of this...
Make my day even worst...
Taking Baby King to the doctor waste me almost all my allowance...
And was thinking that can claim from him...
But...
ISH!!!

Then...
I was angry for about two days and refuse to go home with him...
and I don't really remember what the hell happened...
We had a big fight...
During the "war"...
The only thing he say that makes me happy is...
He told me to stay there (my house) as long as I want...
Don't come back also never mind...
And my reaction was like...
OH YEAH!!!

Until not long after...
He SMS me and asked me to go home with him...
And I was forced to follow him home...
Because there is something I need to use is in his house...
So I went back with him...

And when i was back...
Guess what happened?
His mother was so DAMN "POLITE"...
She put all Baby King's things that was previously in the basket at the living room in to my cabinet...
It was so messy until I had to clear it up again...
Of course...
I was angry...
DAMN ANGRY!!!

If she put it on my bed I won't be so pissed about it...
At least don't go in to my room when I am not around to find people's things...
It is not right and you know it...
Besides...
I am quite tidy and stubborn about the way I put my things...
Guess what i found out?
My cabinet was all opened by someone...
WTF!!!
Obviously that someone was looking at my stuff...
I hate people touching my things without asking me about it...
And someone important to me too...
Makes me more dislike you because you are the one who lectured me about all the moral stuff and let's see what you have...
Just let me shout out one word to ease my anger...
GO TO HELL!!!

His mother seriously...
Beh tahan!!!
She is the one that promise to help me watch after Baby King in the first place...
So she as my elder I had to listen to her...
This is what he told me when I married him...
And I listen to her about stop on breast feeding Baby King...
And look what happened not long after Baby King didn't had breast milk...
Obviously his immune system its not that good...
And he got lung infection and had to stayed in the hospital for 8 long suffering days...
I am not blaming her...
I am blaming myself because I didn't stand up for myself and for my son too...

Now you are not taking care of Baby King anymore...
To me...
From the point of view I see...
You are the one who don't want to take care of Baby King...
Why are you always have to steal him away from me whenever I was home with Baby King?
Plus...
Again...
Without asking some more...

Please...
Before you lecture people...
You have to think about the whether you have the same problem too...

The other day...
After I went back home...
His sister came in to my room and I taught she was only playing with him...
And I was unpacking the things with him that he left for me to "clean" after coming back from Korea...
Then...
The moment I turn my back to see what is Baby King doing...
I saw her carrying him away from the bed and I was looking at her...
She looked back...
She looked at me and tole me that her mother wanted to play with Baby King...
I finally beh tahan say her : You want to take my son out you don't know how to ask first is it?
OMG!!!
That felt so great...
Then...
Without saying anything she left with Baby King...
Then I turned to my husband and say...
Your mother want to play with the grandson she don't know come and carry him ah?
My husband just diam diam at there...
If you asked for permission and if the condition allows...
Sure I will let you do whatever you want...

This makes me remember of another incident...
I borrowed my camera to Lun to take pictures in Korea...
And I don't know and don't want to know about it...
He left the camera in his siblings house...
Then...
His parents went to take the camera...
Go take camera mai go take camera lor...
You take a on the process of recovering baby go for what?
I said NO already but they still bring him out...
Plus it is raining some more...
I was angry and posted my feeling in FB on purpose...
No offense of saying this...
But I am seriously lack of words to describe them...
Except for...
NO BRAIN!!!

Okay...
So long for now...
Expressed all the anger and boy it feels better...
So long for now...
Wish me luck for the future with no worries...
Wish me luck for the future that I can have my own house... =)

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Seven)

2011-04-20T22:51:00.001+08:00

Today...
I am seriously very unhappy when Ms Beh break the news to me...
I feel like crying...

Ms Beh told me that I'm BARRED from my HHR final exam...
I was in schocked!
So am I now...
Still not believing that I had been BARRED from exam...

For most of the reasons that I skipped the class is because I woke up late...
Due to need to take care of baby King, do homework, do assignment, work and tidy up the room until late night...
Plus...
Every morning I need to call him up like a thousands of times...
I know that he is very tired...
But there is nothing much that can do when you don't have a car for me to bring baby King to the baby sitter...
Well...
No matter he is in the afternoon shift or in the morning shift...
He also had to get up early to send baby King to the baby sitter...
And there is sometimes that I am in the morning class and he was in the afternoon shift...
This situation is really making me CRAZY!!!

I'm getting a second thought on our marriage...
I would just like to leave...
I would just like to give up...
I am seriously very tired...
I am sorry...
What a woman got to do what a woman got to do...

Since I'm married...
My attendance record is not that good...
It's either LATE or ABSENT...
I want to make it right...
I want to move back to my mother's house...
I want to just FOCUS on my studies...
I want to just FOCUS on my baby King...
I want to just TAKE CARE of my family...
My mother espeacilly...
Doing a lot of part time in order to let us have a good life...
Since daddy died...
She had been a very very hard time on raising us...
I didn't even know that she had her heart surgery...
Every time I think about this...
I cried...
I am not there to accompany her...
I want to grab my chance to accompany her and do what I can to be by her side before it is too late...
Even now...
Baby King's diapers, food, toys, walker...
Whatever baby things you named it...
She pay for it...
NOT the father!!!

So the conclusion is...
I will be moving back to my house when he went to Korea for holiday for a week...
And I will go back to his house...
Because to me...
His house is like a HOSTEL to me...
I put my things there...
Have my shower...
I slept there...
And when the sun arise...
I'm out for the day...
Since is like that...
I am going to move back at least until I am graduate...
Otherwise...
He need to buy a house for the three of us to stay with...

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Six)

2011-04-20T22:50:00.001+08:00

最近真的有如天跌下来的感觉；
不好的事情，
不好的感觉，
一连串的发生！

前天联络到屋主去看屋子
他因为做晚班
所以就有可能没办法去看
那他就提议说叫他爸陪我去看
当时的心情就是：
为什么每当我们小两口要做什么之前都要向他的父母说？
我是一个很注重私人空间的人，
我真的很不喜欢别人来插手我的家事！
除非我本人允许他人进入，
不然我对那些人会很反感！
可是他的父母就是这样，
爱管爱给意见！
他也是一个，
什么事都要告诉他父母，
什么事都要问他们意见！
到底我现在是嫁给你还是嫁给你父母？
你都这么大了，
有些事情应该可以自己做决定了，
为什么还要好像三岁小孩子一样，
“妈咪，我这样好不好？”
“爸爸，我可以买这个吗？”
我再这样忍下去总有一天会进精神病院！
我会受不了，
我会想不开，
我会去割手的！
我没有也放弃去插手你管你孩子的事情，
请你们可以不要介入我们小两口的世界吗？
你们有你们管孩子的方法，
孩子一两个星期不去上课也无所谓；
我有我的生活方式，
我不希望我儿子会像你们家的小孩那样！
我绝对会反对把儿子交给你们照顾！

说回当天看屋子的情形，
如果不是我妈咪叫我叫他们去看屋子，
我也懒得去理会他们，
妈咪好心去载他们一起去看屋子，
上车没有跟我妈咪打招呼，
照理说我妈咪是你们的长辈，
一句的问候你们都不可肯问，
那天还说我没家教，
那你们又如何？
这个场面就好像当我妈咪无道！
可恶！
过后他爸爸就开始打电话给他的朋友，
叫他朋友一起来看屋子也不说一声，
那么神秘做什么？

上到去那边，
看了那屋子，
又无声无声的自己跑下楼下去，
没有说一声！
都不知道什么人来的！
看完了，
我妈咪回家先，
而我就等他们跟他们一起回,
会去之前还坐在那边一段时间说废话，
明知道我不会听潮州话还要用潮州话来商量！
这算什么意思？

经过这件事，
我自己有了一个结论：
潮州人，特别麻烦，特别挑剔！

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Five)

2011-03-17T23:16:00.004+08:00

Seriously...
I don't know what is wrong with this family...
Or should I say what is wrong with me?
I just DISLIKE everything they do recently...
Maybe because of the incident cause by his sister...

Here goes the story...
Well, his mother's situation is not that stable...
Because maybe he can't accept that her father passed away...
So, she is now in Penang for quite a time...

Before his grandfather passed away...
She was already getting a depression...
So, his father have no choice but to sent his wife home...
It means that the house left us three and them four...

It was okay...
I don't mind tidying up the house and doing some chores...
But, every time I do it...
I GUARANTEE you that it won't last a second...
The next thing you come back...
The house is a MESS again...
WTH!!!

When this happen...
I swear to God that I won't going to clean up the mess again...
Just let it be...
And all his father and brother did was say her...
No action at all...
Since like that...
So I thought...
Who am I to scold her?
Her family also don't want to bother anymore...
Why should I?
Waste my time and energy...
I just hope that my dearest son won't be like her...

And there was the other thing to pissed me off is that...
I really try very hard to forget it and forgive her...
But...
To tell you the truth...
I CAN'T!!!

The story starts on one day she went it to my room to play with Little King...
Then she saw the "SPONGE-BOB"(the thing to tie your hair in a different shape) packet...
Then, she asked that if she could borrow...
At first, I just IGNORE her and PRETEND I didn't heard her...
But she just kept asking...
And that ANNOYED me...
So I agreed to borrow her...
And give it back to me on Friday night...

On Friday night...
I saw the SPONGE-BOB was TIED to a racket...
And she was asleep in the living room...
I was like...
WTF...
A nice SPONGE-BOB...
And it was SUPPOSE TO BE ON YOUR HAIR NOT A RACKET!!!
I was seriously very angry that night...
And my hubby become the victim of my anger...
I'm sorry...

Because I had to work on Saturday...
So hubby bought me the SPONGE-BOB to let me tie my hair easily...
It was a surprise gift from him and it is very special to me...
And on that day...
When I wanted to use it...
I found it BROKEN...
DAMN!!!

I wake him up quickly...
And he become my victim again...
How am I supposed to go to work without it...
And as I mentioned...
This is a special gift from him...
How could she...
Until now, I'm so DAMN angry about it...
Even though that he bought me another new one...
But the original meaning wasn't there anymore...

After that...
I totally IGNORE her...
And won't let her play with Little King...
I am cruel I know...
But when you mess with me and didn't even apologize...
There's your consequences!!!

After that...
On Monday...
Because she have school...
She went in to my room and take the SPONGE-BOB from my room herself early in the morning...
She must have thought that I didn't know...
I just don't want to waste my energy and scold her plus waking up my Little King...
And the way she act...
Reminds me again that...
What his mother said to me few months ago...
She said : " 你读了那么多年的书，你妈妈你老师就没有教你什么是道德吗？"
And look what her precious daughter DID...

I won't be able to forgive because I don't have a BIG heart...
And I won't be able to forget how you hurt my heart so DEEPLY...
I just hope that the SCAR you guys make won't get infected or get worst...

Here...
I feel deeply sorry that I didn't went back to be in mourning...
Because I can't left Little King alone with my mother again...
I don't want to trouble her so much...
Plus Little King is having fever because he had injection...
I need to take care of him...
I don't want to know how they feel or think...
Because it makes me feel guilty for not going back...
It makes me feel like I'm disrespect...

To dear Grandfather of Lun...
Although we didn't have so much time spending with each other...
But I think that you are a strong and a great man indeed...
Because you suffered from lots of illness...
Please do protect Big Lun and Little King with all your mighty powers...
Thank you...
We will be missing you...
Me and Little King will visit you whenever the time allows us to...

P/S : Given up to clean the mess that you guys made in the house...
It's time for you guys to realize that after making SHITS you have to clean it on your own...
By the way, looking for a NEW house and I hope I didn't as soon as possible...
And I found a NEW job...
It was home-based data entry...
Had to wait their calls...
Seriously hope that they call me as soon as possible...
Seriously need money for living... ><''

如果不坚强，懦弱给谁看？

2011-03-01T15:42:00.001+08:00

夏至过后，气温急剧升高，整个身体似乎处于脱水状态，迫切地渴望水源，却始终孤立无缘，不可救赎。降水少得可怜，大地被火辣的日光残忍的撕开了无数的口子，喝泥水的孩子用眼神诉说着自己的委屈和期盼，我用最后的残存的力气坚守着自己的梦想和期待。

人的一生如此短暂，人的生命又如此的渺小，我们能该变的太少太少，很多时候，我们能做的只有无奈的接受，很多事情，也只能随风而去，那些青春年少时的天马行空早已支离破碎，甚至连零星的碎片也无从追寻；岁月如同手中的细沙，越是握得紧越容易失去，终于我不再年轻，年龄渐渐的写在脸上，留下了流年的痕迹，我开始想珍惜自己所爱的一切，可始终不能接受不喜欢的东西，依然不能强颜欢笑，快不快乐都暴露无遗，过着最真实的日子。。

从成人开始，就应该学会独立，不能躲在父母的羽翼下逃避困难，因为他们的银丝提醒着我们，父母老了，将来我们要用强壮的臂膀来守护，把责任放在肩上，并且一无反顾。人最后只有一个结果—死亡，谁也逃不掉，从生到死的过程里，还得拼命的折腾，如果我懂得了苦难不可避免，还会那么害怕吗？如那不可逃脱的死亡一样，勇敢的面对，或许趟过了痛苦的河流，就能到达幸福的彼岸，人真的很需要信仰，死至不渝的坚信一些东西，例如，头破血流还在梦想的路上颠沛留离，记得对自己说：坚持就是胜利；心力交悴也要在真爱未来的时候爱惜自己，鼓励自己：在下一个转角就会遇见。真的，一切不可能随心所欲，人生更不可能一帆风顺，要么坚持到底，要么永不放弃，我们别无选择，因为我们的生命只有一次。

绝望来临的时候，我会封闭自己，任其自生自灭，我倔强的把坚强表现出来，我从来都不认为自己是一个内心脆弱外表坚强的女子，我有足够的能量去承受苦痛，我不怕失去任何东西，却又偏执于失去之物，总是觉得只有时间才能证明一切，如那陈香老酒，越是久远，味道就越是醇香，可是我忽略了时间还可以冲淡一切，没有把事物一分为二来看待。我不知道身为一个女子喜欢冒险到底好不好，我喜欢选择艰难的路，而且无怨无悔，尽管时常伤痕累累。

生活不相信眼泪，我深信不疑，以致我认为流泪是软弱的表现，所以不轻易掉泪，尤其是人前，最后，我知道了真正的坚强不是不流泪，而是自己亲手拭去眼角的泪滴，随即展开笑容。如果觉得苦，就痛快的哭出声吧，男人哭吧都不是罪，何况是女子？

如果不坚强，懦弱给谁看？没有人可以拯救谁，只有自己才是自己的救世，没有不好的人，只有不好的心态，我不知道未来会怎么样，我只知道，无论怎么样，我都不怕。

亲爱的，我能做的只有这样！

2011-02-28T16:51:00.003+08:00

不是我想插手，是到了忍无可忍的时候！

为什么做人要做到那么绝？

答应了人家的东西又不给人家！

就是因为你当初说好了会把洗衣机和冰箱卖给她，她才会告诉新搬来的人说：“这里有洗衣机和冰箱！”

言而无信！现在你要她怎么像新来的人交代？

学你们一句：“我不知道！”就可以当做没事吗？

搬家就搬家，为何留一大堆垃圾给她自己一个人清理？

留下的垃圾还不要紧，连自己的衣服底裤不要了都留在那边给人家清理！

交个水费电费都要三催四请！

现在门坏了都没有一个肯去找人来修理，又是把责任丢给她！

请问，门是她弄坏的吗？

在此，向提醒你们如果找到人修理门的话，请你们把弄门的费用还回给慧玲！

我看你们搬出去都没有跟屋主讲一声的咯！

想搬就搬，拍拍屁股就这样把所有的问题都丢给她解决！

现在如果在四月前找不到人来租大方的话，那大房的钱屋主就要慧玲负责！

她的状况大家都知道，为了生活，为了上课，她得做工赚钱，赚的都不够给自己用！

你说她这么承担这重重的责任？

何慧玲到底有什么得罪你们使到你们要这样对她？

亏她还处处为你们着想！

你们有事的时候，她都会伸出援手！

能帮的她一定帮！

这是她该得到的待遇吗？

你们搬了过后还跟我说：“我很怕他们等下得罪了那边的屋主，赶他们出来，那他们就无家可归咯！”

死傻婆！笨到无药可救！

当初一起买的冰箱，现在你们都搬走了。

是否该把原价还回给慧玲？

做人，请不要做到那么狠，那么毒，那么绝！

人有三衰六旺，你也会有需要到他人帮忙的时候！

都说了，不是我想插手，是到了忍无可忍的极限！

Posted on Facebook, but deleted by Class Representative.

And copied by Eddy, Sheng Yew and Yee Kian who paste it on to their notes!

Should I ask for copyright fees? =)

To Believe Or Not To Believe

2011-02-09T14:50:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went to see the Sifu with my mum...
Of course...
Baby King is coming along...
Because Sifu wanted to see King King... ^^

Sifu said this year I MAY have another coming...
MUST MUST MUST prevent from getting pregnant again...

Sifu said this year my health is not that good...
And I felt it too...
He said lungs, large intestine, liver and stomach MUST take care properly...
And the worst part is...
He told me that I had to sleep before 2am...
And this was a very challenging one...
OMG!!!

Sifu also said that whenever I am alone...
Don't think so much...
Be optimism always...
(I guess this is the only way to prevent me from hurting myself again...)

And one very very IMPORTANT one...
Sifu said that I had to control my temper...
Whatever happened also must be hard-hearted enough don't say anything...
LOL!!!

Lucky to have this blog...
Can express through here...
Haha...
LONG-LIVE INTERNET!!! =D

Yes...
I ADMIT...
I am a bit of superstition...
But...
After listening to the Sifu...
It some how calm me down very very much... =)
Anyway will try my best to take care myself...
This is the only way in order to watch my baby King grow up... ^^

P/S : Sifu said that it is DESTINED that me and my hubby to be husband and wife...
So I am not going to say that I want to divorced again...
(Well, sometimes MAYBE will think of it)
Will try to solve the problem if not just leave it and let it be... =)

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Four)

2011-01-07T11:34:00.004+08:00

Since this mother is not around...
I am actually according to them...
It's responsible for all the house chores...
Ya...
I know that I'm suppose to help out...
But shouldn't they help out a bit too?
Do I need to voice out every time?

It's been very very tired after school and work...
When reached home need to...
Sweep the floor...
Wipe the floor...
Wash the clothes...
Hang the clothes...
Wash dishes...
Put back everything to the right place that they left it just there after using it...
Some more...
At night need to take care of Hin Hin...
Luckily he sleeps until the next morning...

All this also never mind...
I can accept...
But something I really really can't accept what he had done to me this morning...

I won't forgive him no matter what...
Want to know what he did?

... ASK HIM!!! ...

After that...
He went to take his sister out to school...

Then...
When I woke up...
It's was 7.30am already...
It is considered late...
Because I haven't pack the things that was suppose to bring...

When I walked to the living room..
I saw him using my Lappie...
If he can opened means my password need to be change...
How can he do so?
Didn't his parents taught him that taking people's belongings without asking permission is wrong?
Know what he answered?
He said I DON'T LOVE HIM!

Does love equal to sex?
Does love means you have to give whatever the other half wants even you refuse to?
I don't think so...
In another words...
I OBJECT!!!

Since this is the case...
Then...
I rather DIVORCED...
And start a new life with my son...
I rather raise my son up by myself than counting on him or his family...
And there is a problem if I'm really going to DIVORCED...
He said he want Hin Hin...

What can I do?
God-Brother suggested that don't think any more...
Finish my studies while earn some money for my own if anything happened...
After that only see how and what to do...

This means that I had to be EXTREMELY patient for this two years...
ISH ISH ISH!!!

Am planning to record whatever they did wrong on here...
And if I decided to go...
I am going to write a list of this shits out on a paper...
And just leave the letter there...
And take Hin Hin out of the house and NEVER EVER come back...

Just by thinking of it makes me excited and very the DAMN happy... ^^

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Three)

2011-01-07T11:22:00.004+08:00

For some reason...
Well...
The doctor didn't really know what is wrong also...
Most probably is cause by DEPRESSION...
His mother went in to hospital few days ago...

Went to visit her yesterday...
She was totally like a dead person lying on the bed...
Don't want to eat...
But luckily got drink some water...
Have high fever some more...

Since her condition was that bad...
So I had to sent Hin Hin to the baby sitter...
Because no one it's free to look after Hin Hin...

Before she went in to the hospital...
She was also like a nearly dead person...
She refuse to eat...
She would suddenly woke up and say want to take care of Hin Hin...

There's one time that she suddenly woke up...
And came out of the bedroom...
Sat on the floor and hug Hin Hin...
Then after I went to the kitchen to take water...
She had took Hin Hin to the bedroom...
Then I call him to take back Hin Hin...
But she refuse to give Hin Hin back..
She held Hin Hin so tight and Hin Hin cried...
I can't stand it anymore...
I went into the room and snatch Hin Hin back myself...
THIS IS SERIOUSLY WAY TOO SCARY!!!

I'm not going to let her take care of my son ever again...
Whether his family like it or not...

量子物理与生活

2010-12-26T12:57:00.002+08:00

人的大脑
只会储存自己可以辨识的事物
也就是说
我们的大脑只能看得到
我们认为可能的事物

比方说：
当哥伦布发现美洲新大陆的时候
陆地上这些印地安人的眼中
根本看不到哥伦布的船
在他们大脑意识中
没有船的概念

如果大脑无法辨识
那么即使这样东西就在眼前
你也看不见

如何？
听起来很神气吧！
可是这是千真万确的事情哦！

如果还不明白
大家可以回想一下

当你坠入爱河时候
是不是总会有个人
突然而且刻意的出现在你的眼前
往往在人群中
总是一眼就能看到他

因为大脑辨识出他的存在
所以你的眼光会不由自主地一直注视着他
就算对方没有告诉你
即使只是存在于同一个空间里
你也会感受到对方的存在
甚至可以做些动作来强化自己在对方大脑里的辨识

所以爱是一种发现
发现本来就存在的那个人

给某人...

2010-12-24T01:35:00.004+08:00

在2011年...

你想做我的誰？

00♥…朋友

01♥…女朋友

02♥…男朋友

03♥…情侣

04♥…情敵

05♥…死黨

06♥…我妹

07♥…我弟

08♥…我哥

09♥…我姐

10♥…会一直对我好的人

11♥…红颜知己

12♥…蓝颜知己

13♥…懂我的人

14♥…愛我的人

15♥…我愛的人

16♥…背后默默支持我的人

17♥…永远的好朋友

18♥…关心我的人

19♥…我所关心的人

20♥…死对头

21♥…好搭档

22♥…最熟悉的陌生人

23♥…情人

24♥…兄弟

25♥…最亲的人

♥ 我想做你一生中最熟悉的陌生人! ♥

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part Two)

2010-12-13T19:13:00.008+08:00

I really don't understand that...
Why us women need to do all the chores...
While the men do nothing at all except entertaining themselves...

In Chinese there is one word state that...
Rules are DEAD and the people are ALIVE...
It means that RULES ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN!!!

And this is why his mother always screamed TIRED...
That day I was happy because I get to sat down and do nothing and get my 20 ringgit...
But, he SPOILED the whole thing...
He suddenly told me that I need to study and sometimes take care of Hin...
Asked me to quit the job and just concentrate on those two...

Have he ever think of what about my TPM fund?
Is he gong to pay?
It's another EXTRA EXPENSE...
Where is he going to get the money?
ISH!!! ><

There are other things that make me PISSED OFF today...
The story start from...

The whole family was going out after I went back home to hand over the camera to sis...
Only left the 3 of us (Hubby, Hin and Me)...

Later on, I switch on my LAPPIE and go online...
Not long after that, Hin was crying so I make a bottle of milk for him to drink...
Then, half way through Hin was drinking the milk...
They came back...

And his younger sister came in to see Hin as an excuse...
After that, not even a word...
She walked to my desk and started to sit down and play her Facebook...
I was like...
WTF!!!

I looked at my hubby and he didn’t say a thing too…
I remembered the “little talk” that we and his parents had the other night…
His mother said: “You study so many years and get so much education you don’t have MORAL want is it?”
I was truly angry when she said so…
What about her daughter?
NO MANNERS AT ALL!!!

Think before you say others…
My hubby didn’t even stand up for me for the whole conversation…
As if it is my entire fault!

At that moment, I know I can’t count on this family…
The other thing was…

I was kind enough to borrow my LAPPIE to both of his brother…
They should have known the rules of using my LAPPIE and when to switch it off…
They play until the next morning…
When I was about to pack my bag, I asked LAPPIE from them…
I was like WTH when I knew that they play the whole night…
And from that moment on…
I SWEAR THAT I WON’T EVER LET THEM PLAY MY LAPPIE AGAIN!!!

I cooled down very fast after that…
But when I reached college, open my LAPPIE…
I saw the battery was like only 10% left…
Then, my temper starts to light up again…
I taught I gave them the power supply…
How come my battery just left TEN PERCENT?
IT IS TOO MUCH!!!

P/S : The only thing I did wrong for my entire life is...
I never voice out my opinion and what I want every time things happened...

NEW LIFE = NIGHTMARE (Part One)

2010-11-29T02:04:00.004+08:00

The reason I wanted to blog again...
It's because I need a place for me to express my feelings...
I usually express my feelings at facebook...
But...
There are too many relative on facebook...
So it means that no matter what I post they also will get to see it...
And maybe tell my IN-LAWS about it...
And FINALLY after the little talk that we had today...
The only thing in my mind was I WANT TO MOVE OUT!!!
And so I started to delete all the CHUAH's profile...
It feels good...
In fact...
GREAT!!! X)

After marriage...
I realize that the exterior of the family will always look good...
But the interior...
OMG!!!
Really can't stand it...

The problem to me was...
Mother-In-Law SPOILED their children very much...
During my pregnancy...
I still went to college...
Do my assignment...
And help to do some light house chores because some of the house chores they PANTANG pregnant lady to do...

I still remember that before I give birth...
She always tell me that Father-In-Law was late to deliver the food to her and she starved...
Because after a person gave birth and all the drama...
The person will be very tiring...
And need to eat to prevent the wind to go in...
At first I thought that...
She has been through she knows how it feels and she will prevent it happening to me...
Well...
I WAS WRONG!!!

I starved for quite a long time...
And because they PANTANG many things...
I can't eat the food that was ready from the hospital...
At last...
I starved and the wind got in my tummy...
And when the food prepared and arrived...
I had no appetite to eat already...
That is okay by me...
But...
When I told them that...
I got scolded...
And I had to force myself to eat...
ISH!!!

Updated News...

2010-11-29T01:51:00.003+08:00

It's been a while that I had touch the blog...
So it's time to update this blog of mine...

Okay...
The last time I stopped was taking a NEW course...
Which is the Tourist Guide course...
Sponsored by the government...
Well...
After struggling and a lot of stress...
I FINALLY did it and got my license...
YAHOOOOOOOO!!!

Later on as promise to the government..
Had to do training in a travel agency at least for 3 months...
There are some unhappy things happened...
And I decided to QUIT!!!

I had make up my mind and wanted to study...
After persuaded my mum...
Finally she allowed me to study my Hotel Management course in Reliance College...^^

Not long after that...
I found out that I'm PREGNANT!!!
And it was already 5 months...
So had discuss with Alan about it and decided to keep the baby...
And then we got MARRIED...
And so the beginning of my life as a WIFE, a DAUGHTER-IN-LAW, a SISTER-IN-LAW and a MOTHER...

Photos of my Little King can be found at my FACEBOOK... =)

Crazy Weekend...

2009-07-20T22:12:00.003+08:00

Yeah...\(^^)/
Emelia's mum finally approved...
To let her overnight at my house and go to Bon Odori with me already...^^
(Although between got some unhappy things happened...Let's just forget it...)

As the title above...
So far...
This had been the craziest weekend in my life...

18 of July...
It was a Saturday...
I woke up bout 11 something...
Prepared myself...
Then...
Went to have lunch with my mummy dear...

We ordered western food...
To me it was surprisingly delicious...=p
After that...
Mum sent me to Cambridge...
Met Peggy there...

We skipped classes...
And went to Jusco window shopping...
Hehe...
Until bout 3 o'clock in the afternoon...
We just went home...

Sista pick me up at the LRT station...
Went home...
Took a rest...
Swept the floor...
Took a shower...
Then...
Prepared myself for the next destination...
BON ODORI...^^

Bout 5 something...
Leon came and picked me up...
After that...
Went to picked up Lia...
We got lost at Len Seng on the way...
Hehe...X)
But finally still manage to reached her house la...

Bout 6, 7 something like that...
We reached our destination...
Which is the Panasonic Sports Complex (Formerly known as Matsushita Centre)...
This is the 33rd Bon Odori Festival...

Actually we had nothing to do there...
As soon as we reached there...
Took some picha...
(Will upload them when I'm free...)
The funniest thing was...
Leon bought the camera...
But left the batteries at home...
LOL...

Later on...
We all are hungry...
So went to the food stalls and see got what to eat...
The food there was DAMN expensive man...
But we shared out...
So was not that "hurt"...
Hehe...X)

Well...
We met LOTS of old friends there...
Met Kary...
And other seniors in the school as well...
Met my dear son also...^^
And other ex-schoolmates as well...
We went back after taking the EXPENSIVE dinner we had...

It was bout 9 something when I reached home...
Lia and I prepared ourselves for the next stop...
Which is midnight movie in Leisure Mall...
With my dearest brother, Alan...

He picked us up bout 10 something like that...
Reached cinema bout 11 o'clock...
After buying the tickets...
Went to Wong Kok to have supper...
As me and Lia was still hungry...
We ordered CHEESE rice...
DELICIOUS!!! xp

Our movie started at 12 midnight...
After the show...
Alan fetched us back home...
When I reached home...
It was bout 3 in the morning...
This is the FIRST time for the both of us...

We chit-chatted for a while...
And went for bed...

19 of July...
Woke up early in the morning...
Hung up the clothes from the washing machine...
Prepared ourselves for the day...
After that...
Alan came to picked us up...
Planned to sing k...^^

Reached there...
Got the room 22...
Waited for others to come...
Later on...
Alvin showed up...
We sang bout 3 hours like that...

Finally...
Can hear Lia sing again...XD
So nice...
Plus I never thought that Alan can sing that well also...
~claps for the both of them~

I always managed to escape to sing...
Wakaka...X)

After that...
Had to fetch Lia home already...
So we said goodbye to Alvin...
And went off...

Then...
Alan said want to watch movie...
So i accompanied him...
After that he sent me home...

Oh my...
What a EXTREME weekend...
Although it was tiring...
But it was fun if you do this once in a while...^^

My Happy Days...

2009-07-20T01:42:00.003+08:00

Konichiwa...
I'm back...^^

Where did I stopped...
Oh ya...
The NEW life of mine...=)

Early in the morning...
As I reached college...
I saw many of people sitting on the bench near the lift...
Waiting for the class to start...

When I thought that I had to be alone...
I found Ah Tam sitting in the library...
Then I found out that he was taking the same program with me...
Yeah...\(^^)/
I found a companion...

So I dragged him to accompany me...
Later on...
Beyond my expectation...
Ah Pham is taking the same program as well...=)
So the three of us sat together...

Yeah...
I got two bodyguards...XD

P/S : Sorry...
It was just a simple introduction on it...
Am kinda busy...
Komenasai...(>.<)

Bon Odori...

2009-07-15T00:28:00.004+08:00

Yeah...
I'm going to the 33rd of Bon Odori Festival afterall...^^

Will be going with my friends...
My good good friend Leon and my dear sister Emelia...
Now hope that Emelia's mum approve...

Bon Odori here I come...X)

GOD BLESS ME...:D

The Luckies Girl...

2009-07-14T23:21:00.006+08:00

Tomorrow is the day that...
I'll be starting a NEW life...
I'll be starting a NEW course...
I'll be joining a NEW class...
I'll be meeting NEW classmates...
I'll be on my way to a NEW career as well...
Tour guide...
Here I come...
Dear passengers...
Please bear...=)

Lol...
Wondering why I suddenly change course right?

Yup...
I'm studying hotel management previously...
But due to the stupid school didn't update their PTPTN things...
Cause me and my course mate can't apply the PTPTN loan...
Now they settle everything...
And had to wait for the next time to apply...
Which is in September...

So my mother had to pay RM200 monthly until I get the loan...
How and where is my mother going to find such a huge amount of money?
She still owe her friend the deposit that she had to pay for my school previously...
It's really frustrating to mention this issue again...

As I mention above...
I'm the LUCKIEST girl..
A door shuts...
The other door opens...

Well...
Somehow...
There's an opportunity for me to start a NEW career in my future life...
Due to the loss of jobs of people in Malaysia...
The government agreed to sponsor them to study this course...
Which mean this course is FREE...
(Somehow they include me in and make sure I get this promotion...Shhhhh...)

Of course...
There are terms and conditions...
Which will be...
After studied this course...
You had to work and get the letter from your boss...
(Forgot what letter is that already...Hehe...:D)
Besides that...
You can't missed a single class...
Or else...
You had to pay the course fee yourself...

OH MY GOD!!!
Which mean I can't fall sick...
Had to take good care of my health...
Need to start spray the stupid medicine already...

And...
I had to kinda stop my guiding for a moment...
Sob sob...T.T
At least until the end of the year...

Will be pressuring myself also...
Because there will be tonnes of...
NEW things...
NEW places...
To be learn and memorize...
I repeat...
MEMORIZE...
(I had a serious HTML...:()
Haiz...

Never mind...
WHEN THERE'S A WILL...
THERE'S A WAY...
Bear that in mind!!!
I CAN DO IT!!! X)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

2009-07-14T23:10:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday To You...
Happy Birthday To You...
Happy Birthday To JIA CHIANN...
Happy Birthday To You...

Today is one of my classmate's birthday...
She is my classmate for 5 years already...
But don't think she realize it...
Hehe...X)
Things happened...
People changed...
Anyway...
Wish you all the best through your life...^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

2009-07-13T17:38:00.003+08:00

Today is one of my classmate birthday...
As usual will dedicate a birthday song...

Happy Birthday To You...
Happy Birthday To You...
Happy Birthday To SOON FEI...
Happy Birthday To You...

Wish your every birthday wishes came true o...^^

BIG EVENT!!!

2009-07-13T04:59:00.003+08:00

It's the 33rd Bon Odori Festival...

The Bon Odori Festival is a Japanese Buddhist custom which is held annually to honor the deceased spirits of one's ancestors. It is meant to be a joyful celebration, bringing families together, and celebrating rather than mourning the lives of the dearly departed.

Bon Odori Festival 2009 (Selangor)

Venue :
Panasonic Sports Complex (Formerly known as Matsushita Centre)

Address :
Lot 4, Persiaran Perkilangan, Seksyen 21, Shah Alam, Selangor.

Date :
18 July 2009 (Saturday)

Time :
5.00pm onwards

Tickets :
FREE ADMISSION!!!

Phone :
03-2274 2274 (Japanese Club of Kuala Lumpur)

Transportation :
FREE shuttle bus from Shah Alam KTM Station to Masushita Stadium is provided

Rules & Regulations :
1. Strictly NO SMOKING except for designated areas.
2. NO HIGH HEELS allowed in the dancing field.
3. Guest are advised to car pool to the stadium due to limited car parks.
4. NO COS PLAYING. Respect the Japanese culture and tradition please.

We will rent a bus to the destination if there are lots of people joining us.
Anyone is interested?
Please contact me ASAP (As Soon As Possible)!!!
Thank you...
Hope to see you guys there... =D

(Information grabbed from Rachel...)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! ^^

2009-07-10T04:39:00.003+08:00

Gor - Wen

To my dearest gor gor...

Happy Birthday To You...
Happy Birthday To You...
Happy Birthday To WEI WEN...
Happy Birthday To You...

Yeah...
Congratulations o...
Old liao 1 year...
Wakaka...XD

Wish your every birthday wish come true...
Happy XXth Birthday o...
Kaka...=D

狮子座的性格...

2009-07-09T04:01:00.001+08:00

狮子座，
一个博爱和充满阳光，
能量的星座，
其实狮子座的人很向往爱情，
说白了就是狮子座的人最爱的是自己，
他要让自己发光发热，
获得别人的爱和崇敬，
在这其中，
他能够体会到这种来自他人的关爱而感到愉悦，
于是，
他就爱上了别人。

狮子座的人很不愿意伤害别人，
因为他的内心是善良和充满正义感的，
他是重视原则的人，
但是，
如果他做了伤害别人的事情，
即便出于面子他没有说什么，
但是其实内心里他会真的好自责好内疚的，
虽然别人看不到，
但是他的确会好难过。

狮子座的人，
无论男女，
都很容易陷入一份感情，
但是热情来的很快，
冷却的速度也快得惊人。

如果他可以对一份感情持续很长的时间，
那么恭喜了，
说明你真的很强势很有魅力，
足以让他对你死心塌地，
否则，
狮子座这种内在没有安全感又很敏感的动物，
很可能从更有魅力和新鲜的事物上找温暖，
因为，
狮子座的我们看起来好坚强好阳光好乐观，
但是骨子里面的不安感从未消退过，
表面的自信只不过是保护自己的盔甲，
但并不是很真实。

同时，
狮子座的人也可以很绝情，
不可能吃回头草，
字典里没有“后悔”或者“回头”这两个词，
因为狮子座的人很爱面子，
自尊心比什么都重要，
一旦放弃了或者决定了，
就不可能回过头去改变，
狮子座的人也很怕被伤害。

宁可错过一份感情，
宁可放弃，
宁可不要，
也不会冒可能会被伤害的危险，
因为太不值得，
因为狮子座的人太爱自己了。

狮子座的人喜欢热闹，
但是也很享受孤独，
他可以把这两者之间搞得很平衡，
他很喜欢跟朋友一起，
疯狂的玩闹，
成为一个 Party 的主角，
但是回到家里，
他立马就可以变得异常安静，
不喜欢被打扰，
他需要自己的空间来思考，
如果不给狮子这个空间，
对他步步紧逼，
那么他一定会抓狂，
变得不可理喻，
他还会离开你，
因为在狮子的字典里，
“自由”和“自我”这两词的比重几乎占据了全部。

还有，
狮子座的人很喜欢新鲜的，
华丽的，
有质感的，
昂贵的，
有品位的东西，
他也喜欢朴实，
但是却不喜欢无聊和无趣，
他害怕一成不变的枯燥，
他害怕今天就能预见明天的可能性。

狮子座的人有两种不同的倾向，
一种是很喜欢天然的东西，
不喜欢过多的修饰；
另一类是很喜欢奢华另类奇特的事物，
更多是狮子座是两者兼有。

狮子座的人很宽容，
通常不会因为小事而斤斤计较，
他们喜欢展现自己与众不同的仁慈心和获得尊重。

对于过往的爱人，
狮子座的人很少去探讨是谁的功过是非，
无论当时对方有多伤害自己，
但是过去了就过去了，
狮子座的人不会去诅咒或者怨恨，
因为他们喜欢向前看。

狮子座的人相信，
只要自己完美和努力，
幸福就在前方，
更美好的一定在等待着我们！

超准！
这就是我！XD

Miracle...XD

2009-07-09T03:57:00.001+08:00

WOW...
Today I skipped school again...
Haha...XD

I didn't do that on purpose...
I can't woke up due to too excited bout the camp...
Hehe...X)

Scare didn't take these...
Scare didn't take that...
Scare need to use these...
Scare need to use that...
Haha...
Worry too much already...
Kaka...=D
At last need to bring 3 bags...
Haha...XD

Anyway...
When I woke up...
There was no one at home...
I was HOME ALONE...
So decided to tidy up my room...
After that clean my messy room...
Iron all my clothes...

Then...
Don't know what happened to me...
Started to sweep the floor...
That wasn't weird at all...
But moping after sweeping...
That was a MIRACLE!!!

I swear I never do that to the whole house since I was small...
LOL...
Now that the whole house is clean...
Feel so comfortable...
Wakaka...XD

Oh ya...
There's another miracle happened...
My mum called just now to check whether am following her back or not...
Then she said that sis said she want to fetch me to HQ tonight...
I repeat...
SIS SAID THAT SHE WANT TO FETCH ME TO HQ TONIGHT...
Walao...
I was like...
WOW!!! THIS IS MY LUCKY DAY!!! XD
No need to carry 3 bags take LRT already...
Thanks to my generous kind sis...
\(^^)/...

Finally...XD

2009-07-09T03:56:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!!
*claps**claps*

Finally...
The day that I HUNGER for so so DAMN long...

Tomorrow go CAMPING already...
HIP HIP HOORAY!!!
\(^^)/...

Actually the camp starts on Thursday de...

But due to the preparations that had to been made...
So need to go earlier to settle the things...
Did I mention?
I'M THE QUARTERMASTER!!! XD

Yeah...
Cooking is what I enjoy best...=D

Will be back on Saturday...
Will update bout the camp later...

I'M DAMN EXCITED!!!

(Like Pn Toh said...
Saya ni memang GILA PANDU PUTERI!!! XD)

Facebook's Quiz...

2009-07-09T03:54:00.002+08:00

Currently ADDICTED to Facebook's quiz...
I have to say...
Some of it was quite accurate...^^

LOL...
My Italian name...
The suitable Italian Name for Wai Ai Peng is :
Luca which have meanings Bringer Of Light...

My Latin name...
The suitable Latin Name for Wai Ai Peng is :
Augusta which have meanings Venerable...

Here comes the NOT accurate part...
Dear Wai Ai Peng, your sexy level is as much as 158 points which mean: sexy as ........!!!!...

This numbers based on below formula :

W+A+I+A+I+P+E+N+G
10+33+11+33+11+2+15+40+3=158...

**Note :
Less than 50 points = not too sexy
Between 51 and 75 points = pretty sexy
Between 76 and 100 points = damn sexy!!!
More than 100 points = sexy as ........!!!!**

LOL...
Haha...XD

Now comes the HALF accurate part...
Dear Jannie Ann, with height 164 cm your ideal weight is 57.6 kg based on below formula :

(164 cm - 100) - (10% X (164 cm - 100)) = 57.6 kg...

OMG!!!
Need to gain weight to reach my IDEAL WEIGHT...
Kaka...=D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! ^^

2009-07-09T03:53:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday To You...
Happy Birthday To You...
Happy Birthday To ALVIN...
Happy Birthday To You...

Yeah...
Congratulations o...
Old liao 1 year...
Wakaka...XD

Wish your every birthday wish come true...
Happy XXth Birthday o...
Kaka...=D

Walking Away...^^

2009-07-09T03:52:00.001+08:00

Today's Horoscope...

The New Moon in your eleventh house of friends,
Hopes and wishes may make for a great deal of excitement tonight;
Don't go out unless you are prepared for a lively ride.
Creativity also runs high,
But some may be in the presence of those who have an idea of fun that is not your cup of tea.
Walk away from a fight rather than make an issue of trivial matters.

Take a look on your sign now...
http://thestar.com.my/horoscope/

Horoscope...^^

2009-07-09T03:50:00.001+08:00

To me...
The horoscope in The Star newspaper is quite accurate...
(Well...
A girl have to believe what a girl have to believe...
Wakaka...XD)
I personally like to read bout things like these...
But not fully believing in it la...
Believing in yourself is more important...

Anyway...
Let's check out what my star sign says this week...

Leo (July 23 - Aug 23)...
Lucky Day is Saturday...
Lucky Colour is Green...
Lucky Number is 12...
Leos work hard and play wild...
You easily transform from playful kitten to feisty lion...
Just don't forget the cat naps...
Or you'll be using up too many lives too soon...
Still,
There's precious little chance of keeping you still this week...
Face it,
You're in an adventurous mood...

"Just don't forget the cat naps...
Or you'll be using up too many lives too soon..."

What it says is totally right...
I've been staying up late...
Sometimes didn't even sleep these few days...
Kaka...^^

I'm crazy I know...
Life is too short to do all the things we wanted to do...
Recently have been planning on not sleeping...
Due to the deadline of our group project...
But after reading this...
I felt like God wanted me to stay alive more longer...
And that my daddy know this EVIL plan of mine...
So they purposely let me saw this...
Hehe...=D

Well...
Maybe I think too much...
But I believe what I believe...^^
Congratulations dad...
You manage to destroy my EVIL plan...
Now I have to reschedule...(=.=lll)
LOL...^^

Anyway...
Just want to say that...
BABY LEOS ROCKS!!!
(Yup...Am praising myself...Hehe...)

If you wanted to know more bout horoscope...
Please click the following link...^^
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Horoscope

TTFN...
(Ta Ta For Now...^^)
(Learnt it from Tigger...XD)

Subway With Dear...^^

2009-07-09T03:38:00.001+08:00

Well...
Based on the title above...
Yup...
Having lunch with Maxine on 5th of March at Subway...

The YUMMY Food !

AAAAAAAA~~~

MMMMMMMM~~~

Later on...
We went to McDonald to eat [VANILLA ICE-CREAM]\(^_^)/...
Look what did this 16++ BIG children do...

Playing With The Ice-Cream Pulak! ==

Next...
It was COTTON CANDY TIME...=p

BLAST-OFF!!!

The following link was the day we celebrate with "Tai Ka Che"...
http://www.friendster.com/viewphotos.php?a=808413661&uid=77483585
ENJOY!!! ^^

Loooooooog Post...

2009-07-09T03:35:00.000+08:00

Ohaiyo...
I'm back...
Where did I stopped?
Oh ya...
IKEA!!!

✖6th of March✖

Sis took me to IKEA...
Bought a NEW bed frame and a NEW-MINIMIZED computer desk...
My rubbish was too many...
Until now also can't fit all in...
LOL!!!
Who call my STORE-BEDROOM was so damn small...
Oh ya...
Bought a leaf-shaped canopy as well...
It's also bout the "FENG SHUI"...
IKEA was so big...
After we had marked down the things we wanted to buy...
We had to go to a big...
No...
It's HUGE place to get the materials...
It was so damn heavy...
There wasn't a gentleman gentle enough standby there to help us...
After that...
I had to rushed back to packed my belongings...
Because the following day I'm going to join the HARI KELUARGA KEPANDUAN at DESA WATER PARK with Maxine...
Yup...
I'm going to overnight at her house...^^
Actually we made our "tai ka che"'s birthday present until midnight while having snacks...

✖7th of March✖

Early in the morning had to force myself to wake up in the comfortable AIR-CORN bed...
Then, off we go to the water park...
Met lots of my "OLD" friends...
And of course some NEW friends as well...^^
I think there were over 1000 guides went to this BIG event...
Kids was running around...
It was like so scary...
They were like just my hip-tall...
And every time I walked...
I had to look down...
(I'm not saying I'm tall...XD)
Of course...
In this wonderful family day...
And so many kids around...
There was my FAVORITE...
VANILLA ICE-CREAM!!! \(^.^)/
At the end of the day...
I was wondering...
Why do they don't get tired?
I was like so DAMN sleepy...
My eyes was shutting...
My legs are killing me...
So once I reached home...
I was like a lazy pig...
Slept until the next morning...
Oh ya...
Our dear Pn Toh gave the committee members a pot of beautiful white orchid...^^

✖9th of March✖

It was our "tai ka che"'s birthday...
Yup...
It's NORMA...
Who else?
We met at the KL Central...
Then went to take putra to the birthday girl's house...
We sat at the MCD in the Am Corp Mall while waiting Justin to buy the cake and Komi to bring Norma to us...
Well...
I think Norma expected our SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY...
Because she doesn't looked surprise at all...
We had to think of a better plan next year...
After that...
We played pool and ping pong at Norma's condo...
It was my first time playing pool!!!
Wow...
Felt like a BIG girl...
Haha...XD
Then it was too boring waiting us to put all the balls in the hole...
We stopped and changed to ping pong...
Of course...
Playing ping pong just like that wasn't fun for us...
No exitment at all...
So we copied the TVB's game show...
Choose a title then say out the answer while hitting the ball to your partner...
Well...
So far the MOST stupidest title was...
"KIND OF LAUGHTER"...
Imagine Maxine and Roha played...
It was like...
M: Hehe (Hit the ball to Roha)...
R: Hoho ( Hit back the ball to Maxine)...
(P/S: The above was just an example...
I don't want you guys laughing in front of the computer ALONE while looking at this blog...
Then your parents will like thinking...
"What's wrong with my daughter?"...
You know Maxine right?
The way she laughed that day...
OMG!!! XD...)
And me and Losh was laughing and laughing like a MANIAC sitting at the bench...
LOL!!!
And the two who was playing pool on the next table...
Which is Norma and Komi...
Was thinking "What's wrong with the guides?"...
Later on...
Losh and Komi went home...
And we stopped the games...
Siting at the sofa...
The night is still young...
So Norma bought us to Desa Fishing Spot to PRAWNING...
(Because we were fishing prawns not fish...=D)
These was our first time...
We had no experience...
But at the end of the day we got 5 prawns...
Yipee...^^
Norma even named the first 3 prawns as TOM, DICK and HARRY...
LOL!!!

OMG!!!
I forgot the day when me and Maxine went to have luch at Time Square...
Will upload the silly photos next post...
And I was tagged by Mei Wern...==
Sorry dear...
I was LAZY...
Hehe...XD
Tata...=)

2009-07-01T22:33:00.000+08:00

一年一度的华人农历新年又到了...
耶...
红包来咯!
哈哈...

2009年的新年节目超特别的...

年初一...
老妈子50岁生日...
我们为了这那么有意义的节日临时做了一些意外惊喜...
我们三姐妹各买了一份生日礼物给她...
当然是跟着她的需要而买的咯!
大姐是在我们三姐妹中最有钱的...
她买了一个很特别的MP3给她...
小妹是我们当中比较会存钱的...
他买了一个很特别的杯子给她...
而我呢...
嘻嘻...
无意间看到一个很特别的手表...
就买了下来...
还买了两块妈咪最爱的BLACKFOREST蛋糕给她...

年初二...
早上大约九点多十点将我们就出发到柔佛去了...
路途中...
我们亲爱的老妈子...
突然想起她忘了带地图...
结果就兜回去拿...
然后就开始我们的旅程了...
大家一定想不到我在车里做了什么...
那就是...
猪...(=。=)...
哈哈...
因为很累嘛...
又没有东西做...
本小姐就一直睡一直睡直到差不多要到的时候才醒来...
大约三、四个小时才到小姑丈的家...
这是我们第一次去他们的新家哦...
他们的家布置得满特别的...
特别是现在经济不好嘛...
还把整个家布置到很有新年气氛哦...

年初三...
我们在下午四点钟有个很重要的约会...
是关于我的将来大事的哦...
那就是去新加坡看看寻寻问问那边某个学院的资料与环境...
因为
所以下午的时候就去了大姨家一趟...
难得百年去一趟新加坡...
当然要去看看她老人家咯!
她还带我们去看她可爱的孙子...
可惜啊...
没跟他照照...
过后呢...
姑丈就带我们到SGH...
因为妈咪要索取一些有关LIVER TRANSPLANT的资料...
之后才去赴约...
上到去环境还不错的...
厕所也高级到...OMG...
可是一听到那个半功读的课程后...
失望...T.T...
不是我想象中的那个...
算了吧...
死心...
回吉隆坡读吧!

年初四...
时间过得真快...
又是时候讲拜拜...
回家前去JUSCO吃了KFC...
路途中...
妈咪无端端问我要去哪里读...
我说不知道...
还想去多一个地方看看...
就是TRAVEX了...
之后一回到家就立刻打电话跟他们说一声我们会来...

年初五...
一大早就去了赴约...
环境我本身觉得还好啦...
问了过后我决定了...
TRAVEX我选你!!!
下午的时候...
大姑姑他们来了...
小表哥去了PANGKOR...
最搞笑的是我竟然把姑姑和姑丈调转来叫...
尴尬死了...>.<...
之后受到个意外惊喜...
二表姐竟然生了个女儿...
怎么没有收到通知呢?
侄女很可爱哦!

年初六...
我们去了神庙问我们一家在今年的运程...
妈咪 - 不可大意...
大姐 - 要有眼光...
小妹 - 忌水...
而我呢...
不可出夜街...T.T...
不可以去PM了...
可怜的我...
然后就去大奶妈和小奶妈的家拜年...

年初七...
在家休息...
这几天天天出...
累死了...

接下去的八天也没什么特别...
所以不写了...

Fresh Start...

2009-07-01T22:11:00.000+08:00

Today is 1st of July...
Planned to went for college this morning...
Then later on went for class at Cambridge...

But...
I slept late...
So skipped class again...X)

Although miss already the morning class at college...
Of course won't miss the afternoon class at Cambridge...
Hehe...

Went there with Peggy...
Long time didn't see her already...=)
Actually...
The class was boring...
Because I've went through the chapter in the previous class...
As the class goes on...
We were chit-chatting about her trip...
And of course gossip bout her friends things...

Will be visiting my secondary school on Friday...
I hope she can come with me too...
Then...
We can go for SHOPPING!!! XD

Oh ya...
By the way...
Met Sam before having class...^^
He is a very kind man...
He promised to sponsor my next level's books...
Yeah...\(^^)/

That's all for today...
Now need to transfer some of my blog post to here...
Hehe... :D